Any body here with transgender ocd that evolved from from hocd, and now they are intertwined. Is really amazing how our brains works, my brain went from hocd to harm ocd to pedohile ocd to relationships ocd and now transgender ocd. And the heart of the matter is that I don’t care what it is no more, fuck reassurance and I’m not going to play ocd games anymore, if it says I’m a woman or female, I guess I might be or might not. Honestly, half of the time I’m happy that I’m unsure about my gender andthe anxiety swells up. That way I can let thought be and see the whole picture of thoughts even if they were true. I honestly don’t know if they are true or not but I will live with it and live according to my values. Btw I was triggered while I wrote, I hope I stay triggered ?????.

Well this is going to sound like reassurance because I really don’t know what my brain tells me I’m, but is all ocd, once I realize the game ocd was playing, I said fuck that and fuck reassurance, I might be gay, trans, pedophile, violent, evil, not always right, fuck that if I’m well idk, how can I ever know if I’m. And if I’m well idk if ever will have a good answer so, I realize that even if the anxiety is high there is a way to make it higher and make my brain even higher state of anxiety and that is liberating,

Got you bro, I think that there is a difference between wanting uncertainty to get out of it and just jumping into it willingly without knowing what might happen, and that is scary shit and I just go for it every time it throws at me. Once you leave all reassurance behind guess what is going up anxiety and uncertainty. And accepting that is huge, that’s why I’m so happy to be uncertain about my sexuality and gender, even if it scares me. Again, I do want to be uncertain and act according to my values. But thank you though it did made me unsure about wanting uncertainty, and I thank you for that. I don’t appreciate the reassurance of if I look down on I will know my gender, please don’t.

I was just hit with tocd and that’s it :(

ME ME ME ME I HAD ROCD THEN HOCD THEN TOCD MIXED WITH HOCD AND NOW I'M BACK TO HOCD! It's the most annoyingest shit I've ever dealt with in my entire life.

And triggered right now as I’m writing this and I really want this to be in my life, and I want to be unsure and still do the things that are important to me.

I had HOCD then it evolved into TOCD, and now I have both again unfortunately.

Hey what’s up cyka, how you been bro. Man that shit sucks, but is all good we might be whatever our thoughts tells us but we don’t know and that is okey.

I’ve been doing decent at best really, TOCD and HOCD pop up here and there. Although HOCD is at its extinction due to treatment. It’s pure garbage we have to go through this. I hope you’ve been doing well also.

Yeah bro, is hard and everything you do is related around that fear, but fuck it, if we are we are and we will never know. Until you realize you don’t need reassurance to live you won’t move to live on

It’s amazing how your brain can go on and off between themes.