Can OCD make your real emotions feel like lies? For example, you feel disgusted by a thought, but for some reason that feels wrong? But when a disturbing thought comes to mind, you almost feel like you enjoyed or liked it? I'd appreciate any advice
Oh it definitely does! We often confuse anxiety with other emotions. Making it feel like we like a certain thing
Emotions are so hard to explain when having ocd. We get them so mixed up
Is this the same for when it feels like you enjoying a thought?
@Anonymous Yes! When you sit and think and try to replay memories in your head to see how you react to them it makes it harder because your body is in flight or fight mode so your anxiety makes you feel like you like something!
@Brooklyn#1 I see, but what if I'm no longer feeling anxiety? This has been going on for five months to the point I'm and my brain are actually convinced that this is something I like or wanna do and anything against that feels wrong
@Brooklyn#1 Hello?
Hiya I have this as well and although I don’t know much about ocd from what I have read this is normal to have! It’s another part of your ocd convincing yourself that you are a bad person and trying to make you feel worse about yourself. I am sorry you are experiencing this at the moment
Can OCD even make your intrusive thoughts more enjoyable? If so, what do I even do if I've believed my thoughts for so long that everything else anyone says seems wrong.
@Anonymous it can trick you into thinking you enjoyed it or tell you you enjoyed the thought for sure! I don’t know much about ocd I only recently found out i had it so sorry if I cannot help to much
@Catlover546 Please don't apologize, none of this is your fault. I just feel like I shouldn't exist anymore, in the past, when the thought of liking my thoughts came up. I was mortified and it even lead me to throwing up. I was so convinced I'd never want to do something like that, but now, it feels like a complete 360 change of what I had been feeling. It's like my feelings have changed overnight and I'm not bothered by it
@Anonymous I understand, the thoughts can change I’ve seen another person on here say the exact same thing as you so I definitely think people can feel that way
@Catlover546 Its nice knowing I'm not alone, but I'm really scared, because I don't feel like I'm myself anymore. Like, anytime I go back through my memories. Back to when I was scared, it feels wrong, like I shouldn't be scared because I like it now. It feels like I genuinely like it now to the point everything else feels wrong
@Anonymous I honestly feel like im feeling like this right now and i hate it because there are times when im so sure and then others when im not and I absolutely hate it I feel like my brain is thinking i am what I fear and that i want it but I know i dont and that I couldn’t live with myself if i was….i can barely live with myself now having the thoughts and reactions to them
I feel like I’m struggling with this right now and could use some advice too
Does anyone have any advice for how to know the difference between ocd and real feelings/thoughts? Sometimes an intrusive thought will come in and I immediately know it’s ridiculous and I can just leave it alone and it won’t bother me but other times I really really don’t know. It’s when ocd hijacks and twists my real feelings and thoughts and tries to manipulate me into believing they’re something they’re not or something that doesn’t align with my true morals or intentions. But since it’s twisting and mixing with real feelings I get so confused and scared. Everything gets jumbled and I feel like I can’t trust myself or my own mind. Yet other times and other topics I can laugh off and push away just fine. Make it make sense. And then I start to think well maybe I don’t have ocd at all and I’m just in denial because I don’t want to accept that these scary/concerning things are true about myself. Or maybe that’s just the ocd talking.
I would love to have some insight in this in general I deal with thoughts but for me it is the feelings that make ocd this difficult The feeling of disgust for my partner, the feeling of wanting the content of the thoughts , the feeling that this is the real me , the feeling that i am lying to myself and my partner, the loss of attraction,... Because when i write it like that ,that that these are feelings, it seems very much that i am just in drnial and i am bi but i cant love men anymore, or that i am not attracted to my bf and so on
So, yesterday while I was laying in bed, I was relaxing when suddenly I had an intrusive thought about someone, but the thing is that it brought me a sense of enjoyment or calmness for a few seconds before it went away. Once it did, it was only until hours later when I realized what had happened and I began to freak out because I'm reading everywhere that when someone experiences this type of thing, the anxiety happens shortly after the enjoyment or "false" enjoyment. Can OCD do this?
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