- Username
- mrtoaster
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Because OCD absolutely lives for bad timing. Bad circumstances exist especially when something is particularly good , which drives them. Your job is to not change your life to accommodate the thoughts ?? they are thoughts while you are a fully developed person with a complete identity. Which means you are more significant than them and they can only have power if you , who can actually hold the power , gives it to them
I felt this so much bro but just keep on pushing it’s hard I know but we are greater than the thoughts. I just want to have One day without having HOCD thoughts bro just one although I’m not thinking about it too much not doing any compulsions etc but it doesn’t go away I just don’t know anymore
But in the midst of all of this I know that my Girlfriend makes me happy because when she’s around I don’t think about it too much but They are a lot of Gay dudes in my residence never used to care about them but when I see them they just take me back to square one And I only really feel better when I’m intoxicated which is a bad thing
Maybe it will make your relationship stronger becuase you will grow and realize that's not you and you can be even more confident and open always look at the bright side becuase the issue happen okay we can't change that it happened but what you are control of is how you will act it takes time to master it but it's possible how do you think people get cured becuase they work their ass off and positive.
I had a dream about a past “relationship” (we didn’t even date and knew him for a week, he’s from another country and he left after telling me he loved me when he really had a gf back home! What a dick head!!!) and for a while I was upset about it. Cuz it was like “exciting” I guess. But in the end it wasn’t really much. But he randomly pops into my head out of nowhere and I hate it. I don’t have feelings for him and he used me. I love my boyfriend so much but now my intense ROCD is back. I keep thinking “what if I don’t really love him and I love this other guy” which is just NOT TRUE. the way my boyfriend makes me feel is just...amazing. Never met anyone like him. But now everything is hard again and s*x has been SO HARD for the past 6 mo since I’ve been off my meds. This is so long and so fucking much but I’m beginning to worry my relationship is getting ruined.
Is it really possible to screw up ur sexuality? Like everyrhinf was clear and good and normal and just so extremely good and i was happy with everything and then this crashed and i feel like it desdass ruined my hormones or something like idek whats going on? How is it that 2 years ago i look at harry styles and my heart jumps and i wanna be with him and my mind was healthy and clear and 2 years later i feel nothinggg for him my hearts empty i feel broken and empty. Why is it that i dont feel something that SHOULD be there
I remember the exact night my brain turned on me last year and it’s just been downhill ever since. I just don’t understand why I’ve gone all my life so far without OCD and it just hit me out of nowhere at 25.. i guess everyone is different.. but I just don’t know what to do now. I’m terrified to try meds. Therapy is expensive. I just feel so lost.
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