SpriteDude13
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ZoroarcanineZoroarcanine
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I know how much this sucks going through this, but this question is very reassurance seeking and will not help you out in the long run. There is no 100% right or wrong answer to this question. The only one trying to make you worried about the answer is OCD. If you haven’t I highly encourage you seeking ERP therapy either on this site or with someone in your area. OCD sucks, and I was really skeptical how ERP would help me but since I started it this year, I’m in such a better place
SpriteDude13SpriteDude13
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@Zoroarcanine Did you ever lose attraction to women? When you had this?
SpriteDude13SpriteDude13
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@Zoroarcanine Like I have no idea if this is ocd or I’m in denial always have liked girls and dated them but not I got no attraction I stare at dudes my mind says that dude is hot my thoughts come and go like it goes am I gay but it’s not like there I gotta think about it now before it was there constantly I’m very confused
ZoroarcanineZoroarcanine
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 1y
@SpriteDude13 I totally get those fears, and I would by lying if I said those thoughts still didn’t cross my mind now that I’m in a much better place. This explanation always scared me when I was starting out but you’ll gain certainty on knowing who you are by accepting the uncertainty. Your mind right now is over analyzing and looking for answers to questions that have no true answer. Kind of like how now you see everyone with your car when you first get a new car, your mind is in a state like that I highly recommend looking into ERP therapy, but if you decide not too, the best answer I can give you is to try to learn to accept your thoughts as just thoughts we don’t really control You don’t need to try to figure out which thoughts are yours and which are OCDs, you don’t need to worry about thinking a dude is good looking, you don’t even need to worry about finding out with absolute certainty what your orientation is. You get to decided how you live your life no matter what
SpriteDude13SpriteDude13
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- 1y
@Zoroarcanine It’s just so random I’ve always been straight and this got triggered after my friends made me a take a gay test on google
ZoroarcanineZoroarcanine
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 1y
@SpriteDude13 Working with my therapist we found an event from when I was in my teens that most likely led to this underlying fear that fueled OCD. Having these subtypes is helpful for finding community in other people who are experiencing similar thoughts, but the one thing that you need to learn to recognize is that you may have this voice in your head that is going to doubt many things in your life, not just your orientation. I know I’ve said it already but I really recommend seeing a therapist who does ERP. If you do have OCD, it’s very important to learn the signs of it for when it switches themes
SpriteDude13SpriteDude13
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@Zoroarcanine The thought is still there but it feels so forced bro I’m so scared
SpriteDude13SpriteDude13
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@Zoroarcanine And it says oh he’s cute or hot
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The thoughts are real? I have so ocd I really think I’m gay.
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