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I experience this frequently. There’s times where it’s so bad that I cry for days on end. I’ve even felt suicidal in the past. My only advice that’s worked for me is to avoid reading and writing things that have to do with the subconscious mind. If you’re anything like me though, then you’re deeply interested in the very things that cause you to suffer. I can honestly say, I suffer from multiple types of OCD... but this one is the worst. Mainly due to the sheer uncertainty about this kind of subject.
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I haven’t, but I can easily see how one could struggle with that. When I was younger my subconscious voice and thoughts seemed to echo in my head. When listening to others speak, my thoughts would echo them and repeat it over and over. Usually the last word someone spoke or just the last syllable. When I would read it would echo too really impacting my ability to do homework. I’m thankful that went away ? The subconscious voice is weird, but your username is absolutely amazing ???
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@skarlett. Avoidance is one of my worst compulsions. I’m trained to sit in my worst thoughts and not do compulsions and just accept the worse
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Sounds like you’re doing the correct things to get better @perfecto!
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Please explain your worst theme exactly?
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Have you noticed improvement when doing this?
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Been struggling with existential OCD lately. Very hard to describe the thoughts/feelings, but it is a constant feeling of being stuck in my head. Like what is consciousness and where do I think from? Like I think it’s OCD, maybe it is maybe it isn’t. But if it is, what would be good ERP exercises? Just existing (lol)? And what would be my response prevention? I’m not even sure what mental compulsions I may be doing.
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Hey guys so I’m new here and just recently started struggling with some health ocd and thinking I had a brain tumor but it’s taken a turn for the worse and become this existential ocd where I’m questioning quite literally everything in my life, the purpose of being here and stuff. I just started meds yesterday, which is scary for me cause I’ve never been on them before. I keep having thoughts like, why does everything feel like a blur, what’s the meaning of this and I wake up every day with just existential dread. I’ve been having very vivid dreams that make dreaming and reality confusing I also am scared cause I’m dealing with some DP/DR as well. I just wish my life could go back to a few months ago before I knew all of this was possible. I guess I’m just writing this too get it off my chest and see if any of you all have gone through something similar and made it out okay?
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My OCD diagnosis is still very new, but now that I know what it is, it is clearly something I’ve had for as long as I can remember. Contamination/bugs and health have been a consistent theme since childhood, but religious/existential themes emerged during adolescence. Around that same time, there was also a good deal of trauma, and during middle school I started experiencing hallucinations. Tactile (like bugs crawling on me or biting me, an eyelash being stuck in my eye, but nothing was really there); visual (like moving shadows or things that would dart past in my periphery, and then I would just have intrusive thoughts of scary things around corners or under things); and auditory (an angry male voice that grumbles or yells indistinctly, or a high pitched noise like a microphone/speaker feedback but muffled and less sharp). Because of the religious denomination I grew up in, I initially assumed these were demons and tried to address it that way, but when I was 14 or 15, it occurred to me that those voices/sounds sounded like the way I felt, and the visual/tactile experiences happened during times of stress too — and so all of those experiences could just be seen as an expression of a fragmented part of myself. That acceptance didn’t make them go away — I still experience them now and I’m in my 30s — but it made those experiences less scary and more manageable. I also see now how these all pop up specifically when OCD obsessions are super triggered and when I’m super sleep deprived. Anyway! Since this diagnosis, and talking about the hallucinations at all, are new to me, I am wondering who else has had similar experiences. I don’t really know how much of the hallucination experience is OCD versus trauma, but it seems like this might all make sense under the “quasi-hallucination” label.
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