Suicidal OCD vs. Suicidal Ideation?

Frist off, I am not asking for reassurance nor do I have concrete plans of suicide, so please don't flag. I am just asking because my therapist was asking if I had Suicidal OCD or actual suicidal ideation, but I am unsure how to exactly tell them apart. I mostly get thoughts of "I am worthless and don't deserve to live" and intrusive images of seeing myself commiting suicide, but they theme ego-dystonic. On the other hand sometimes there are feeling of actual worthlessness and being overwhelmed with life.

Username: Spirit130Spirit130

Date posted: 28w ago

So suicidal ideation is when you’re actively thinking about suicide. Suicidal OCD is when you have intrusive thoughts about suicide but no intention of doing so iirc

Username: AudriiiAudriii

Date posted: 28w ago

I struggle with both (mostly suicidal ocd-like, on a daily basis, but definitely actual ideation at times as well) and it gets so hard to tell them apart. What I've learned, literally just in the past week from being on here, that if another part of you is also wanting for the thoughts to stop or go away, then it's the ocd and not your own actual thoughts. When it's ideation, you're more like, content with the thoughts and they aren't really distressing to you, they're just there, if that makes sense.

Username: AudriiiAudriii

Date posted: 28w ago

Also most of my actual suicidal ideation is still passive and not active, idk how to really explain it but even when it's passive it's still different than the suicidal ocd thoughts (which makes it even harder to tell them apart🤦).

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 28w ago

*seem

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 28w ago

Didn't know this was a thing. I don't want to KMS, but I have the phrase "wouldn't it be funny if I killed myself?" and images of me hanging myself pop in to my head intrusively pretty often. I do have these intrusive thoughts more often when I have something hard going on in life, and do feel worthless and overwhelmed at times, but now that I see your post, I recognize that this is actually an OCD symptom for me and not suicidal ideation.

Username: ysabelleveloz1ysabelleveloz1

Date posted: 23w ago

I have a question. So I have suicidal ocd and it used to terrify me like really bad. I used to be crying on the floor throwing up because I was so terrified. Well I got depressed and I’m not scared on them anymore but I’m just wondering if this is a bad sign? I just feel so hopeless and depressed so I just feel like I’m getting to that point but also I feel like it’s my ocd lying to me

Username: Who_knows?Who_knows?

Date posted: 9w ago

@ysabelleveloz1 How are you doing ?

Username: ysabelleveloz1ysabelleveloz1

Date posted: 9w ago

@Walters15! im doing better now! i still get suicidal intrusive thoughts but it’s definitely my existential ocd that triggers those suicidal thoughts.

Username: Who_knows?Who_knows?

Date posted: 9w ago

@ysabelleveloz1 Did you ever have a fear of depression and then some days feel down and get scared you have depression ? How did you manage these thoughts . I’ve been so good then reading up on how the weather changes spikes depression during cold months now I’m freaking out .

Username: Skai

Date posted: 1y ago

Suicidal OCD vs Suicidal Ideation

2 months ago I fell into existential OCD that left me questioning the meaning of life and if anything was or wasn't real. Became depressed from the thought and eventually through acceptance if never knowing the unknown, I was back to having better days. Well, one day I found myself ruminating about the existential OCD again and had the random thought "Do you think you can keep living like this"? The thought Terrified me. I had been through alot of pain and loss and things but through it all I had never questioned if I could continue living. Since then I've been confused and anxious and tired. I don't know if it's suicidal ideation or suicidal themed OCD. I avoid songs with the word suicide, I stopped watching horror movies and stopped enjoying other things like Ghost Pokémon because they made me think of death and kind of triggered anxiety in me. Sometimes the thoughts feel so real that I'm not sure if it's something I actually want to do or if it's OCD. I've turned to trying to find spirituality and religion to tell myself if I kill myself their may be consequences in an afterlife. Im constantly googling things like "How to make suicidal thoughts go away" and reassuring myself that I wouldn't do it. It still feels real sometimes and it's horrifying. Is there a difference between being genuinely suicidal and suicidal ocd themed?

Username: emilycb

Date posted: 1y ago

Suicidal thoughts vs suicidal OCD?

I have really been struggling the past few weeks. I have suicidal/harm OCD, and I’m very often met with intrusive awful suicidal thoughts that feel so so real. Recently, my therapist said that I might also be dealing with some trauma regarding these thoughts. Tonight, my brain kept telling me that I am past help and eventually, my therapist won’t know how to help me and I’ll end up harming myself. Sometimes I feel so alone and I have so much doubt about whether my suicidal thoughts are ocd or not… any advice?

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Username: Savhatesocd

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 35w ago

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