Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

Alone

I have no one to help me anymore, I wish I were dead. I hate being alive.

BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y

Hi. You have a community of people going through OCD just like you are. People like me. The last thing we would want for you is to be gone. We would want you to get the help you need to overcome this. This is a very debilitating thing to go through. You don't have to go through it by yourself. You can talk about your struggles with us and we can be there for you. Have you ever been in therapy? It's not too late to get the help you need for this.

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

Therapy is not an option because they won't take my insurance

BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous They as in NOCD? Or has this been a general thing?

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@BigGyro09 Just nocd, I'm struggling to find a therapist outside the

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Nocd

BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Are there any numbers you can call where you are? Have you been diagnosed for OCD?

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@BigGyro09 Idk but I haven't been diagnosed yet

BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Okay. Perhaps you can contact NOCD and tell them what places take your insurance so you can get help?

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@BigGyro09 They told that I'm not allowed to change it

BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Not change the insurance, but to go to a place that takes your insurance. Maybe seeing your doctor could help? Your PCP is specialized in helping you just like a therapist would

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@BigGyro09 I'll try that but I don't have anything to fix it now

BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Soon you'll have someone and something to help you with this. It takes time. Hang in there.

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@BigGyro09 It's not fair that I have to wait, I might as well just kms to get better

BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Please don't do that. You have to have hope in yourself. You can get better. You can get through this. If you feel this is an emergency, you can call a hotline. Does your family know you have OCD?

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@BigGyro09 No and they don't care, they think I'm mean and bad

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous I don't trust anyone anymore

BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous I'm very sorry that your family things that. That's really unfair and hard to get through. Still, you shouldn't give up on yourself. You didn't choose to have OCD. You didn't want this to happen. You can still get help.

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@BigGyro09 I'm not even sure if anything that happens to me is even real

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@BigGyro09 I'm always so pessimistic

BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous I think the main thing you should focus on is finding a support group of people that care about you and what you want to accomplish in terms of doing better for yourself. That is definitely possible with NOCD's community and friends that care about you.

staystrong_

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous There are support groups available mentioned on the IOCDF site. https://iocdf.org/ocd-finding-help/supportgroups/ And also on the OCA site. https://obsessivecompulsiveanonymous.org/meetings.php Please try to see if you are able to join any support groups, as they definitely help in coping up with our struggles, and help us finding solutions. Stay strong! You have got this!! This community is here to support you. You are not alone.

Berryx2

Date posted: 10w

I feel all alone still

I don’t know what to do anymore I made a friend recently in college and was texting her the other night and she mentioned she was doing her nails and I said nice and asked her if I could see. Because I was curious about what she did to them this time around and since then she has not responded to me I apologized to her saying I’m sorry if it bothered her but still nothing. Some of my friends just don’t answer me anymore I feel like I’m a burden of the ones who do still talk me I’m so done with it all. I’m tired of trying to find love as well I feel nothing to it anymore it’s only left me with disappointment and sadness I feel like I’m an unlovable husk of a person and that I would only ever be a bother I cannot fathom the idea of someone loving ME I just can’t I feel like it’s impossible I feel like everything about me bothers people to the point where I think is it even something I should try to achieve anymore. I should honestly block myself from trying to make new friends and relationships I’m so so tired of it. I feel unappreciated and annoyed that I am the one that has to try to keep up any sort of relationship because if I don’t reach out they never will reach out to me the reason I know this is because it’s been proven time after time since middle school that I am nothing to these people and I might as well no longer try. I don’t know what to do anymore I feel like I’m going to be all alone for the rest of my life I’m just so lonely now.

Givenup

Date posted: 8w

Venting

All my real events are hitting me all at once and i genuinely despise my existence right now... i feel so alone and genuinely horrible and nothing is working for me right now... im trying to not ask for reassurance but its so dang tough and i dont know what to do... please someone help me... i feel so so so so so alone right now...

Im not good ...

Date posted: 5w

i hate living in america

everyone hates us. everyone is moving on without us and we're being led by a lunatic and we're going to suffer the consequences of his irresponsibility while he's still just fucking fine. i hate it. i hate him. no one likes us, no one likes *me*, no one wants me because im useless. im garbage. why *would* any other country take me? i just want out. i just want it to be over. i feel like im cursed

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