I have this persistent feeling inside that everything feels fake (almost like everything is a lie), the media, politics, war, just day to day life. Sometimes I stop to look around and feel like I am alone in some way. Why do I feel like everything is an illusion or a lie? Im getting these constant thoughts and feelings that there is more than what meets the eye about reality. Has anyone else ever been through this?
You could be struggling with derealization that heightens this feeling. Derealization+ existential ocd= hell
Yes. Recently it's just coming on and off, and hits like a sack of bricks - what is the true reality? How can I be confident in the knowledge that I have? Just questioning literally everything I've learned and as if I don't know what is actually safe. It really is my worst theme. But I'm learning it's another trick of OCD.
@Anonymous Yes, exactly. Are you diagnosed with anything?
@mrselfdestruct1994 - OCD and generalized anxiety
@mrselfdestruct1994 - The first time I had it was triggered by an anxiety episode/derealization. Now just the OCD mental battles
Mine was triggered by a derealization episode, it sucks and I'm still working through it, it's been about a month :///
Kinda sorta, for me I think I'm being setup by the gov and SOMETIMES think everything is fake to get me to think I'm crazy. Like this app even I love it when I can feel less alone in my thoughts but then I'm like what if these are all government agents saying things that apply to me for certain reasons mostly researxh on the way I thinkor the way they want me to think. So yeaa kinda.
@LILBOIIBRENT Are you diagnosed with anything?
@mrselfdestruct1994 Not yet no
@mrselfdestruct1994 In 2022 I was diagnosed with ptsd and cannabis psychosis but I stopped for a year. But not sure if it's ocd now or what but that's why I'm here waiting to talk to a therapist cuz i have no idea what my life is rn.
@LILBOIIBRENT So do you truly believe those thoughts without a shadow of a doubt or is it more like an ocd kind of mental battle thing between your rational brain and anxiety
@mrselfdestruct1994 I firmly believe them but I just can't prove anything so that's why I sound crazy talking about it. So it could just be anxiety and a mental battle.
@LILBOIIBRENT Do you? Or have you ever had hallucinations? Like hearing voices that maybe tell you this stuff is true or something
@LILBOIIBRENT Sorry for all the question man, just trying to compare experiences. Cus I have similar thoughts
@mrselfdestruct1994 No worries, no I haven't be had auditory ones maybe like responding to my intrusive thoughts. But also think it's actual people in their houses who can respond to my thoughts to make me feel more upset that I thought that. So yea. Do you hear voices? I also have my inner critic voice bit also hear like external voices. Sometimes I can't see their fave and sometimes random people will walk by on their phones tlaking to someome but I'll take what they say personally bc it is aligned with what my intrusive thoughts are. So it's hard to decipher.
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@F.A What were your symptoms when you had psychosis. Also, what medications are you prescribed?
@F.A Do you take any medicines nowadays?
@F.A So you were never diagnosed with a psychotic disorder?
@F.A When you say you had a relapse, you mean another episode of psychos?
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@F.A When you had psychosis did you question the delusions at all or it was just clear as day reality to you, like the sky is blue type thing
I’m really struggling with this theme because it can make me feel “fake” and it creates doubts that the world around me isn’t real or it’s a simulation? I’m really trying to expose myself but even the possibility makes me incredibly afraid. It even plays into my suicidal ocd as well and makes me afraid that my life would be miserable if this was true. I know how ocd works and I know not to fully believe that. But at the same time, I am trapped in doubt and fear. How could I possibly accept this? Will I ever see the world or life the same again? (Don’t answer that I realize that’s reassurance). Idk this theme is so ass.
Does anyone else experience this? Every once in a while, I get this overwhelming feeling that is really hard to explain. It is like I *feel* evil, hateful, violent, and completely indifferent. It is such an ugly, uncomfortable feeling, but in that moment, I do not seem to care. I could be watching a video or doing something completely normal, and suddenly, I just feel dark and wrong. It does not exactly feel like a typical intrusive thought because it is not just a fleeting idea that pops into my head. It is more like a constant, vague presence in the background, almost like I have switched personalities or something. During these moments, I also get intrusive thoughts, but I do not immediately reject them the way I normally would. It is like I almost believe them, but there is this tiny part of me that still feels panic or a distant sense of wrongness about agreeing with them. It honestly scares me and makes me worry about what I might do. I do not know if I am explaining this well, but does anyone else experience something like this? I feel like I have never seen anyone talk about it.
Suffering from solipsism ocd where I think that everything around me is fake and that I’m stuck in a simulation as the only conscious being. I also have thoughts that there is a higher power that is controlling everything around me and that I’m the main character in a video game. Everyone and everything around me is an npc or generated to keep me in the “game”. This is the worst ocd theme that I’ve had to deal with thus far. Is there anybody else that has had this? and what ERP techniques can I use? Need some ideas. Thanks.
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