So I’ve been having these weird guilt issues and I feel like I’m lying to myself. I had this weird thing where I thought I had feelings for children even though this is 100% not what I want and it goes against my moral code. But I keep trying to make sure that I feel 100% sure that this is the truth. It is just more distressing and causing more issues. Can anyone help please or have some advice? Thank you:)
Stop trying to make sure. By doing so, you’re giving in to the OCD. what you’re doing is called ruminating. This is classic ocd. Unfortunately, you just have to let your terrible intrusive thoughts be there without trying to investigate them or get to the bottom of them.
@mynocdusername Okay:/, it really is making it feel true and I just feel terrible. Will that go away?
@JulioKelle It will if you resist the compulsion to ruminate and make sure! If you can ignore the thoughts (not try to make them go away, but just don’t give them all your attention) instead of engaging with them your anxiety will decrease
@mynocdusername Okay I’m gonna try. Thank you!
@JulioKelle You’ve got this!
@mynocdusername Thank you!!!
If it helps I had the exact same thing a couple of years ago and instead of engaging the with the thoughts I reminded my self they only come in because they go against your moral code. Constant checking is only going to make it worse, start small with one phrase like “ I only have these thoughts because they go against my moral code” but then don’t let yourself ruminate any further. Tell yourself you don’t need to because you have before and come to the same conclusion that it’s only there because ur actually a good person and it goes against what u actually feel. After a while the thoughts for me became quieter because I had silenced them and then they just disappeared. Don’t get me wrong I deal with other types of ocd now but this one was very distressing so I know how you feel
@Mimi2323 It’s extremely distressing. Like it makes me on edge all the time now. I can’t enjoy my day:/. Then once I feel better, another anxiety or another attack happens. It just circulates… I don’t know how to stop it:/
@JulioKelle The only way to stop it is if you really try to not analyse it and I know that’s easier said than done but you have to try be strict on yourself. As I said saying that one phrase to myself and telling myself I’ve came to the same conclusion every time that I don’t have it and it’s only there because it goes against my actual morals. You’re actually likely a very sweet morally correct person and that’s why these thoughts come in. You fear them and then they become stronger because your brain believes it needs to alert you because you’re scared. You’re scared because ur a good person but you need to stop yourself from checking, no googling and reassurance seeking. Trust me I did it all. Pick one phrase and just say it in ur head and stop yourself from looking into it further. I hope this helps good luck xx
@Mimi2323 Thank you!!
I feel like my head is so messed up. I tell myself, you wouldn't do the things you think about and fear, you have morals. But then I question if my morals are strong enough? Or if my morals have changed at all? I never used to question things like this until my ocd really flared up in the beginning of September, and it's sort of been hell since. Questioning myself, questioning my morals, questioning my intentions, feelings, everything. My main obsession right now is if I find the thoughts enjoyable or not. I feel constantly uncomfortable, uneasy, and anxious. Whenever I see kids in real life I feel fine, I know I'm not attracted to them. But when I'm in my head and the thoughts pop up I question everything and worry that I enjoy them, even though I don't feel bad about kids for the most part in real life? The thoughts are never usually even explicit, it's just like, do you see children in a sexual i ed way? Did you imagine that child in a sexual used way? And I bounce back and forth between being like "no, I'm fine, I know I'm not a pedophile, I find the thought of pedophilia disgusting," and "constant anxiety worrying that I am one and that I only feel anxiety all the time because deep down I know I'm a bad person." Does anyone else share any experiences similar to mine or have any words of wisdom?
Need some advice here as I feel like such a sick twisted person..I feel like I may have sexual intrusive thoughts ocd but sometimes I think it’s just me and my twisted brain- intrusive thoughts about my family members has turned into pedophilia ocd and what makes it worse is that I work with children. Lately I’ve been seeing sexual intrusive images of me sexually abusing young children normally male, and I am obviously distressed by them and I would never act on that but it makes me feel like I would actually do that cause of the feeling I would get and it’s all so confusing and scary cause I would never do that to a child. Please someone help that has maybe been through a similar experience?
I swore I wasn't going to tell anyone this or even try to post about it but lately it been feeling like I have just been fighting with myself. I remember when I was a %100 sure that I wasn't the type of person to be creep twords anybody but now im so unsure, like one min I would know im not attracted to kids then the next I have to constantly ask myself if I am and even that I still wouldn't be sure or think I do want that. Imagies and thoughts would keep popping up in my mind and it feels like a boxing ring trying to just fix them, I remember when I would scream and cry to these thoughts and feelings but now I just feel numb.. it feels like my morals have been switched and im just in denial about me not being a pedo. I obviously dont want to be a pedophile but now it feels like thats just what I am now and there will be nothing to ever change that part of me.
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