Sexual intrusive thoughts

Often, I think that having violent intrusive thoughts is so much better than when they’re sexual. I mean, it’s exhausting— even the simplest actions can set them off. And it’s not that I only have these thoughts, I do have violent intrusive thoughts as well, but I believe that being physically violent with someone is, in a way, better than forcing yourself upon someone. For so long, I’ve thought myself disgusting and gross and repulsive and I’ve found myself sobbing over it in the past because I do dearly yearn to be normal. To not have these thoughts because by god, they are awful. I feel guilt looking into their eyes. I feel shame when I see statues of them playing. I can’t even call them what they are, can’t even type it. It’s awful and I’ve come to understand that these thoughts are rooted in my fear of it, in my strong sense of morality and what is and isn’t wrong. This, too, shall pass. I swear it.

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AAK1

Date posted: 1y

I agree, i have begged and pleaded that I get any other intrusive thought ANY other than sexual/POCD but unfortunately were screwed, but there is hope and there are other things that can help ease this agony I'm no expert but I have come a long way in "dealing" with this mental illness and it gets better just have to actively work at it with the help of a therapist, hope things get better for you.

grellen2000

Date posted: 24w

Intrusive thoughts (21+ please)

I need advice for intrusive thoughts. I used to feel like I could handle them. They weren’t nearly as bad as the things that related to my actual life. But now, I’m suffering. I haven’t had a sexual experience in over a year that didn’t involve constant intrusive thoughts. Most are somehow related to kids and I keep chasing off the thoughts but it’s so bad. I know you’re supposed to ignore them but I don’t know how I can just ignore that and continue what I’m doing. But they’re coming on stronger. I had one earlier I could not get rid of just as things finished so the thought came on strongly just before my orgasm hit and now I feel absolutely disgusting. I hated the thought and I know it’s not me and it was not enjoyable but it still feels like I was getting off to it. I feel sick. I’m so fucking tired of these thoughts. They’re in my every day life too and it’s all the time. I just want it to stop but ignoring it feels so wrong. What should I do?

andrea_sam730

Date posted: 24w

Intrusive thoughts during self intimacy

Today has been really hard I feel like I can’t even breathe I feel like a pedo for real :( whenever i think during my alone time i try and coexist with it? but when i decided to think and think i panic and panic more and more i start feel more guilty guys I can’t take this anymore bc when I kinda feel certain it fades aways i think logically i know i probably am ok :( but it’s so scary for me what if i did actually act on the thought and I didn’t realize? And now reflecting it ???

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Anonymous

Date posted: 20w

Can intrusive thoughts be intentional thinking

I wanted to ask if it is possible to purposely think of an intrusive thought and then shifting your mind instantly to something else? Is it still an intrusive thought if you have been thinking of it 'purposely' for a second? I dont know how else to explain it, but it felt like I was purposely thinking of it. Anyone else had similar experience what happened during intimate moments like masturbation I feel so ashamed cuz the thoughts are so bad they're either about family members children and stuff like that it feels like I think it I just want to know if I'm not alone I feel like a monster because it feels like I thought these things or like I did think these things and I don't know what to do I feel so ashamed and grossed I need help I just want to know if anyone had a similar experience to shed light on because I don't know I feel so isolated

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