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I am right there with you! It’s so hard to enjoy yourself and not have to try and “convince” yourself that you’re not a bad person at the same time. I’ve learned that just keeping the activities going, which is very hard, ends up helping in the long run. I hate being in a sexual act with my boyfriend and then thinking inappropriate things with minors, but still continuing and not letting the ocd push through and ruin the time has helped.

i'm so glad that i came across this post bc it's exactly how i've been feeling. I feel like i can't engage in anything sexual without some sort of horrible image popping into my head. i've never been able to talk about it before.