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- 1y
In the trenches
Hi everyone! I started having intrusive thoughts about suicide in April 2020 after having surgery and weaning off of Percocet. I struggled for months with these thoughts and being scared of myself. I was finally put on Zoloft October 2020 and it helped a lot, even though I still had the thoughts, they werenāt as frequent and I definitely didnāt go into a panic over them like I had been. Last June, a girl I worked with came into work talking about starting a new antidepressant and it giving her suicidal thoughts so she quit cold turkey. Ever since then, I have been fighting these thoughts. Some days are so much worse than others and the urge to give in to the thoughts is so overwhelming I had my husband remove all firearms from the house. I came off Zoloft in August after taking the Genesight test and finding out it wasnāt really going to work as well as it should. Pretty much all antidepressants arenāt the best for me, but Prystiq was in my green category (which means it should work good). I started it June 8th and felt great during week 2, but starting with week 3, starting having extreme depression and the thoughts got worse to where I just wanted to give in. I quit cold turkey as of Monday after 4 weeks and have really struggled with the thoughts and anxiety. Iām terrified to try a new medicine, but I know I cant keep living like this. Iām hoping this platform helps and I finally have some relief! I have never been suicidal so the fact that these are my thoughts now scare the hell out of me because I donāt want to die or have people think Iām suicidal.