READ PLEASE GUYS ITS HELPFUL I HOPE I KNOW ITS LONG BUT TIPS AND HELP!!! Hi guys...woah new update!!! Looks cool I haven’t been on here in two weeks cause my ocd has not been bad! So I wanted to give everyone insight cause I finally saw an ocd therapist and I got finally diagnosed with ocd after a year and half of struggling alone! One thing I want to share about my therapy sessions is that it felt so great to be validated. All of my doctors and therapist before labeled me as anxious. Now after my first appointment the therapist didn’t know what to diagnose me with. She hasn’t dealt with my type of ocd but with the religious one! The “what if I’m sinning” or “go to hell” but This lady sits down and talks to me and we have back and fourths! When I told her my story she was surprised. She told me she was BI and I wasn’t triggered at all because I knew she was helping me I asked her if she was comfortable talking to me about this since it sounds borderline homophobic and she said she doesn’t mind cause I’m not homophobic I’m dealing with ocd and hugged me. She’s amazing! One thing she was telling me that’s a common misconception with ocd and why I’ve been improperly diagnosed is that people think that with ocd you need to have physical compulsions and if you don’t fit the list of requirements than it’s not ocd. OBSESSIVE compulsive disorder! It’s in the name. Doctors think that sometimes if you don’t have physical compulsive behaviors it’s not ocd. She debunked tht. She said that my compulsion based on our conversation is needing reassurance and not even knowing it. And I started to catch myself!!!! I would always when I’m talking say to her “omg am I denial?” Do I know I’m in denial” “what if I’m lying” and she simply responds with “that’s ocd” nothing else and I’m calm again. We are on a game plan to defeat this! STEP ONE GET A THERAPIST THAT MAKES YOU FEEL VALID! I’ve been to 4 and I finally found the one!!!!! I was so nervous to go in because I thought she was gonna tell me I’m gay or I’m in denial but she was so compassionate! This is what we discussed her Step one since I’ve seen her twice so far is identifying the irrational thoughts. So I have sexual Orentation ocd my thoughts that race are “what if I’m gay” “am I a lesbian” “am I in denial” she told me the moment I get these thoughts I label them as OCD and keep a tally! DELAY THE THOUGHTS! Say “that’s ocd again messing with me” any thought that starts with “what if” or “am I” most of the time it’s OCD! She also told me to have my doctor increase the dosage of my prozac! People with ocd need more of higher dosage because most medication for treatment of ocd is made for depression and anxiety as well they are shared so when combating depression you do a low dosage but something like ocd needs a higher dosage. I currently am on 40mg of Prozac but next time I go into my doctor I will ask to be upped! The medication really helps at the right dosage! I love all of you and you’re valid! This is ocd and we will beat it!!! Let me know if you guys have questions or reach out to me via insta :-)