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veinsoul

Date posted: 1y

I believe BigGyro09 explained it well to you and I agree. I also wanted to add that you aren’t alone in this. I can say I had a similar experience. Was 20 playing a game on Roblox & I have met some folks my age playing that game. I had voice chat. The server I was in had YouTubers. I was having a good time bc it was a fairly active server and the people were nice. When I was down, someone had picked my character up and it was this dude. I figured he was with the YouTubers bc I think he was talking with them. So I assumed they were friends. He said somewhere along the lines of, “Gotta save my princess” or something & I replied “thank you my prince” I felt wanted in that moment. some warm feeling bc someone noticed me. I wasn’t alone like the past months I had been suffering. Note, that his voice to me seemed like an adult male’s voice. I didn’t know his age. At first, I was a bit hesitant bc ik any person of any age can play, including minors, but I have seen ppl around my age (18-20) “flirt” around with others. Not sure if they were friends with the peeps they were talking to or just random people. So in that moment, I thought, “okay, maybe I can do it too? he sounds like an adult” time passes by and he comes again but I forgot what he was talking about. then he asked what my age was & I replied “20” he then said something like “oh no, we can’t [I can’t remember]” I asked how old he was and he said “17” but I heard 19 at first & was confused why he was backing off. I said “19? that’s only 1 year, it’s okay.” and then he clarified he was 17. that’s when I was like “oh, I’m sorry” & immediately backed off. anyway, you can clearly see how later on I have replayed the event and worried. I later realized that I have associated YouTubers with being adults. all the YouTubers I’ve watched since a kid have been all adults. so my brain always thinks of YouTubers being adults. I assumed the same for the boy. now I know there can be kids that are YouTubers. another thing is, it would be pretty weird to “flirt” with someone knowing there could be minors around. I have to remind myself that I didn’t know. but I still am fighting inside. it’s hard. that’s why I am now hyper vigilant when it comes to this bc I can’t tell sometimes and it stresses me out. ofc, when I can tell someone is a minor, I don’t do anything. it’s just the part where I can’t tell someone is or isn’t a minor with their voice and looks. it seriously has messed me up and now I’m afraid any person I find attractive could be a minor. (with the exclusion of adults that clearly look old enough to me)

BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y

It doesn't sound like you've done anything in this situation at all. Someone came up to you and said you were attractive and that was it from what I'm seeing. You didn't know their age, but how could you? You've never met them before and you're both behind a screen in a video game. There was no way to have known.

BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y

@Eileen03 I know that if you knew their age, you wouldn't have changed how you felt about them immediately. It's not a bad thing to find someone attractive unless their clearly underaged and you know that, but you didn't. It's okay. You couldn't have known. Try to just let the thought of this exist and don't give any feelings to it

BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y

@Eileen03 Maybe they were, maybe they weren't. That's the uncertainty at play. And that's what OCD loves to have. It wants to put you in a loop of constantly thinking back to this and thinking what if and what if not, but you have to consciously say no everytime. Remember, replaying these events ARE compulsions. They are something you do to keep the OCD at work. Instead, we have to keep it at bay

EndOCD!

Date posted: 19w

Just want a response

So one day a couple months ago I saw some posts on threads pop up on instagram and they said I’m 17 and horny and 18 and horny or I think I even remember see a 16 year old one. I’m 20 and I remembered that when those popped up I clicked on them and I don’t know if I did it out of true attraction or out of the urge to make my anxiety go away. I feel like often times if I see something that says any number under 18 even if it has nothing to do with age it could be talking about season 17 of a tv show my mind immediately goes what?? 17??? And then I click on it to make my anxiety go away. So when I remembered all of this I downloaded the threads app because I wanted to see if I could get reassurance and see if I could rekindle how I felt in these moments. When I opened the app all I saw was posts like that but everyone claimed to be 18. The only problem is none of the girls looked 18 they looked like 14-16 so I started to panic I and worry that because I clicked on the threads in the past it popped up more and I was a pedophile for that. All of the accounts all pretty much had only fans links so at that point I was like well they have to be 18 then but now I’m worried that maybe it’s a scammer and they are using underage pictures of girls and putting them on onlyfans. Which I know is out of my control but I just feel like a Pedo and like I did something wrong. Does anyone have any advice? Or have any similar situations/ similarities with this?

isharemycigs

Date posted: 19w

What do I do

when I was 15 soon to turn 16, I met this girl in a IG group chat made by our mutual friends. We started talking and eventually we started flirting and talking sexual towards each other, though eventually we stopped talking because she was being really weird. A couple months later In July of 2024 my friend found out that she was actually 13 and that she lied to me about her age. It's been 10 months since l've found out and I still feel so disgusted in myself. I had my suspicions at the time but I let them go since she said she was 16 turning 17. I was completely oblivious trusting someone I only knew online especially since i've never seen their face either. i'm struggling on what to do since i've been suffering with POCD since I was 15. Till this day I still feel weird and disgusted in myself because of that. But it feels ironic since i'm sexualizing someone that's 2 years younger than me and I waited to confirm she was around my age range to sexualize her. I feel so weird and guilty about it idk what to do

Anonymous

Date posted: 15w

Pocd?

Since I don't experience attraction towards children so I'm not a p*do. But I've seen some not really child looking character. Thought he's attractive. And scared if he's minor so googled his age. Says 11. But I didn't stopped and kept thought "no but he doesn't look 11", "he's attractive" I'm so scared. Some people says don't live in past but my another past mistakes are just.. disgusting. So lets say if one is caused because I was groomed, another one is caused because I was lacking of social skills. But I don't know if I'm still attracted to 14~16 year olds... I'm scared if I do. I think I'm an ap*ebophile and is also having pocd Lets say the thought "he doesn't look 11" is the reason why I'm not. But it's disgusting. Doesn't look 11 doesn't mean it's exceptional..

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