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- 1y
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- 1y
I believe BigGyro09 explained it well to you and I agree. I also wanted to add that you aren’t alone in this. I can say I had a similar experience. Was 20 playing a game on Roblox & I have met some folks my age playing that game. I had voice chat. The server I was in had YouTubers. I was having a good time bc it was a fairly active server and the people were nice. When I was down, someone had picked my character up and it was this dude. I figured he was with the YouTubers bc I think he was talking with them. So I assumed they were friends. He said somewhere along the lines of, “Gotta save my princess” or something & I replied “thank you my prince” I felt wanted in that moment. some warm feeling bc someone noticed me. I wasn’t alone like the past months I had been suffering. Note, that his voice to me seemed like an adult male’s voice. I didn’t know his age. At first, I was a bit hesitant bc ik any person of any age can play, including minors, but I have seen ppl around my age (18-20) “flirt” around with others. Not sure if they were friends with the peeps they were talking to or just random people. So in that moment, I thought, “okay, maybe I can do it too? he sounds like an adult” time passes by and he comes again but I forgot what he was talking about. then he asked what my age was & I replied “20” he then said something like “oh no, we can’t [I can’t remember]” I asked how old he was and he said “17” but I heard 19 at first & was confused why he was backing off. I said “19? that’s only 1 year, it’s okay.” and then he clarified he was 17. that’s when I was like “oh, I’m sorry” & immediately backed off. anyway, you can clearly see how later on I have replayed the event and worried. I later realized that I have associated YouTubers with being adults. all the YouTubers I’ve watched since a kid have been all adults. so my brain always thinks of YouTubers being adults. I assumed the same for the boy. now I know there can be kids that are YouTubers. another thing is, it would be pretty weird to “flirt” with someone knowing there could be minors around. I have to remind myself that I didn’t know. but I still am fighting inside. it’s hard. that’s why I am now hyper vigilant when it comes to this bc I can’t tell sometimes and it stresses me out. ofc, when I can tell someone is a minor, I don’t do anything. it’s just the part where I can’t tell someone is or isn’t a minor with their voice and looks. it seriously has messed me up and now I’m afraid any person I find attractive could be a minor. (with the exclusion of adults that clearly look old enough to me)
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It doesn't sound like you've done anything in this situation at all. Someone came up to you and said you were attractive and that was it from what I'm seeing. You didn't know their age, but how could you? You've never met them before and you're both behind a screen in a video game. There was no way to have known.
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@Eileen03 I know that if you knew their age, you wouldn't have changed how you felt about them immediately. It's not a bad thing to find someone attractive unless their clearly underaged and you know that, but you didn't. It's okay. You couldn't have known. Try to just let the thought of this exist and don't give any feelings to it
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@Eileen03 Maybe they were, maybe they weren't. That's the uncertainty at play. And that's what OCD loves to have. It wants to put you in a loop of constantly thinking back to this and thinking what if and what if not, but you have to consciously say no everytime. Remember, replaying these events ARE compulsions. They are something you do to keep the OCD at work. Instead, we have to keep it at bay
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I thought when someone add young adults with ocd, mid-life adults with OCD, or older adults with OCD were actually adults I’m worried because I would look at someone profile and assume they’re legal age and talk to them now I’m just like I probably exposed them to inappropriate stuff because of my thoughts
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