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I can't imagine moving so far. Try not to be so hard on yourself about that. Change is extremely difficult for a lot of us. I moved almost an hour away from my home and most of my family has left (or are leaving) my state already too. This has been a very difficult year for me due to so much change. I'm giving myself respect for making the change and respecting my boundaries and limits in the process as I adjust. Give yourself the credit due, you made a huge change and it will get better.
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Thank you. I was really really upset because moving across the world is really really upsetting especially as I was only 13. My life in Russia was awesome and I’d do anything to get back to it but I also try to remind myself that a lot of good things has happened too, even if I’m finding it hard
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@margo1 Sorry if it didn’t make sense I’m really tired
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@margo1 You make sense and it's very clear to me. I'm 35 and change is very difficult. I try to surround myself by people that respect my boundaries and try to understand that. I hope you have that support around you ♡
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@IMsoOCD Thank you so much! Everyone on this app is so nice to me it’s awesome. I’ve had so much change in my life and I still find it difficult
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@margo1 I love the OCD community. We truly are the ONLY people that can 100% understand what each other is going through and we should definitely use that to help one another.
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@IMsoOCD It’s so amazing. People with ocd always seem to be understanding. No matter what age. There are 20, 30 or 70 year olds in this community and we all just stick together and help. I’m 15 and there’s nobody saying “you’re too young” or “live your life and stop worrying” and I think that’s really great
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Yeah it’s really tough! Especially that you have no one. Being with your loved ones will always uplift you. Try to give them a call.. I’m sure they would like that a lot. I’m in the same place as you and it sucks. Take care my friend
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I've suffered back to as far as I can remember. My daughter is 15 and she has had intrusive thoughts as well. It helps her knowing that her mama has been through what she is experiencing and we work on ways to get through it together.
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Sometimes I wish my mom was like that. My mom is really strict and she won’t let me go to therapy because she thinks I can “fix myself”. Last time I told her about my intrusive thoughts (which started when I first moved) and she took away my phone and computer and got mad at me. She doesn’t understand and I really want to go to and OCD specialist but I don’t think she’ll like that idea.
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My mom was the same. She thought it was a phase and I could just stop. It's hard having no control over your professional treatment. I'm so glad you have this community ♡ Have you given or shown your mom any informative ocd sites/paperwork?
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No, I don’t think she’ll like it either. But I have considered telling her, cause maybe her views have changed from 2 years ago. That’s why I downloaded this app, in hopes to help me. And it worked but I feel like it would be nice to have a therapist
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@margo1 Maybe we can work on finding some research you can print out or show her. Something explaining what ocd is and how it manifests, how debilitating it is and that it's a real disorder, not a phase.
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@margo1 I hope these help ♡
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@IMsoOCD Thank you so much!
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I miss when I wasn't ruminating 24/7, waking up with horrible anxiety or spending all day doing compulsions. Even when I try so hard to resist them I just end up in a spiral. I miss when I was comfortable in my nonbinary identity and didn't have TOCD and now everything feels wrong and conflicting. I miss when I wasn't depressed and disabled. I know I can never get that person back. I haven't seen that person since high school. Ive spent years with this disorder and i havent gotten better despite therapy and meds. I don't know if I'll ever be happy again.
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I’m 21. The 3 year anniversary of my graduation from high school is soon. Lately, I’ve been worried about where I’m going in life and if it’s even worth it because I don’t know why I exist or what my purpose is After graduating I lost a new job I loved due to poor management on my boss’s side, they failed to teach me my job then fired me for it, and moved from my mom’s house into my dads house due to issues with my stepdad, both of which put me into a depression. I got a new job 3 months later. But ever since being fired and moving out, I feel like I’ve been in a depressive cycle of Eat, Sleep, Work, Repeat. I’ll get home and doomscroll for hours, and occasionally play games with friends at nights. Occasionally I’ll do my hobbies but usually feel guilty for it. I don’t see my friends and family nearly as much as I used to. I want to, but it feels like everything I want to do, my intrusive thoughts find a way to keep me at home. “It’s a waste of time.” “You need to be productive on your time off or you’ll go nowhere in life so stay home.” But then if I stay home it’s “you need to go out and do something.” “You’re being unproductive sitting at home all day.” “Seeing them wont make you feel better, you’ll never be happy” My girlfriend lives 6 hours away and is usually the only time I’d go outside and live and feel in the moment, but even then I’d feel guilt. I feel like my OCD makes me feel guilty for everything. She’s helped me a lot, but lately we’ve had a few issues we’ve worked past that made me fear for losing her too. I’ve felt depressed for years now. Before being fired, I usually felt pretty good and was almost normal feeling. I’d had control over my fears and intrusive thoughts of suicide and the meaning of life, and had accepted them and wasn’t afraid. I knew it wasn’t me. But lately I’ve been trying to push myself out of this depressive cycle, and it’s made my OCD and fears of suicide and if life has meaning, come right back. I’m handling it slightly better, but it’s still hard. I just want to move past this and stop questioning why I’m even doing anything, if I want to end it all, when I know for certain I don’t want to and that I get to make my own meaning in life. I have dreams, I want to get back into art. I want to move in with my girlfriend eventually and start a family. But my OCD makes me so scared to even try to make art, and it makes me so scared I won’t be happy or content with my dreams. I feel so alone and sad. I feel like life will pass me by while I’m stuck feeling this sad and scared. It sucks, but I’m trying my best to get there. Gotta keep moving
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Not directly OCD related, but: The therapist I will be talking to is not yet my official therapist and to keep a long story as short as possible: I’m from Germany, you usually get 1-2 sessions without “signing a contract” to see if you get along, I haven’t signed yet because I honestly want a different therapist but I also don’t want to wait 6 months and this will already be my 4th session with her. This time, me and my best friend will both attend at the same time since we’ve had ongoing and reoccurring issues for the past 6 months in our friendship, including confusing romantic feelings on my behalf and an overall misunderstanding and misinterpretation of each others feelings towards each other. We both recently graduated and she already knows what university she will be attending (somewhat pretty far away from mine) and even if I wanted to I most likely can’t live near her or attend the same uni. I don’t know how to explain this, but I have been grieving part of our friendship for the past year and the first time I felt like something was off was about 1 1/2 years ago. We haven’t been friends for that long (about 2 1/2 years) but we became very close friends very quickly and I do not want to lose her. However, I do feel like she has changed. Not personality wise but in her attitude towards emotions and friendship? We used to talk so much more and everything felt happier in the beginning as it does now. Obviously our friendship has had its hardships in the last 6 months (she liked/likes(?) a boy, I liked/like(?) her, she used to like be but only in the beginning of our friendship) but I miss our conversations and picknicks and just hanging out with her like normal. We also hat a time in which we didn’t talk to each other for almost 2 months and NOTHING about this made anything easier. I’m genuinely trying to detach myself from her like she did with me but nothing works. Last week we had our high school grad ceremony and we danced and when I held her hands to guide her through the people dancing, I felt those stupid butterflies again and I genuinely don’t know what to do. Sometimes I think I wouldn’t even befriend now her if we were strangers, but we made so many memories and I hate change and graduating, moving away from ALL of my friends and losing the best friend I ever had is too much for me. I get so jealous thinking about how she is going to met new friends at uni and finding a partner and forgetting about me. And I don’t know how to say any of this tomorrow because my therapist honestly doesn’t seem to care about anything I say and neither does my friend. Everytime I say that I feel like there is an issue we need to solve or talk about she just shakes it off. I feel helpless.
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