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- Date posted
- 6y
EsosaEsosa
- Date posted
- 6y
And so what? Denial isn’t as complex as they’re making it. Sure, people can subconsciously hide it from themselves for years but the fact that you spend time actively worrying about it tells me orherwise. No reassurance here, but the rule of thumb of being in denial is being reluctant of bringing the word up to yourself. Like an alcoholic in denial won’t worry about being in denial, they’ll worry about bringing that word into existence and connecting it to themselves. The fact that you and me CONSTANTLY question it and fear about even being in denial proves that we might not even be in denial ??♀️ if we are, so what? It wouldn’t kill us. The only thing to believe between suffering from OCD and being in denial about coming to terms with your sexuality is that what you have is just a thought. Whether it’s true or not, it’s ONLY a thought
andrewt_andrewt_
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 6y
The first thing you should know is that empty closet forums are directed towards people who know zero about HOCD so their stories can’t always be applied to everyone. As we know on here , HOCD has a way of mimicking real feelings even though they’re less genuine than synthetics. I don’t know if anyone who ever questioned if they were in denial. I think your best bet is to not search those forums because they aren’t always realistic and one person’s circumstances are totally unknown and for that reason , their situation is completely different too. Try to accept that you can’t know what you are for sure , but that it’s okay that you don’t know and that you wouldn’t suffer regardless of the answer. Hope this helps ?
andrewt_andrewt_
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 6y
I don’t know of ***
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 6y
Hi I have tocd and after looking at the egg reddit I really freaked out so keep away from reddit the community is toxic and it’ll mess you up
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