I’m so tempted to do something that I know I’ll regret but these thoughts feel so real and repetitive. I even got a memory back when I was 13, my friend made a comment on my appearance and I got aroused down there. Like at that point it has to be denial. It’s difficult to be mindful and accept it as a thought because what if I’m suppressing an important side of myself? I can’t just be going around calling it OCD (although that’s what my therapists thought/think)

What would be the worst thing about not being straight ?? I know you feel comfortable with it more , but if you weren’t straight , what would prevent you from becoming comfortable with it ? You have to adapt and become more comfortable with many things in life , and I think you should tell yourself that if you were lesbian , this would just be another thing out of many to adjust to :) as for that memory you had , and I’m not giving you reassurance , that doesn’t at all tell you anything about your sexuality , using a groinal response to determine your sexuality is like using one headache to determine your entire physical health. Sexuality isn’t only about physical sensations , it’s about actually attraction as a whole. If there isn’t actual attraction there but just arousal , then you could call yourself straight. ( not telling you what you are or are not , just giving a rule of thumb ). And that experience sounds like a very normal one. Hormones can play a big part when you’re younger and complements can make you feel excited or attractive , so that can cause you to become aroused. Like I said though , try to accept that you don’t know , and that literally anything is possible. Wishing you nothing but the best ?

Confess to everyone about my intrusive thoughts about my family, as well as come out as gay on my insta because I keep having thoughts about it. I know that I’m only doing it to get the thoughts to stop, but at the same time, these thoughts won’t stop regardless

No honestly you sound straight to me.

We shouldn't be giving you reassurance, but please know that even if you weren't straight you would still deserve all the happiness and love of this world.

I know I’m 100% straight and I’ve literally made scenarios in my head where I’m dating my best friend (who is a girl) and actually liked the thought. I’ve done so many things that might prove I’m a lesbian but I know I like guys and it’s my choice if I wanna date a girl or not.

What is it that you’re tempted to do

I think confessing about your intrusive thoughts to your family and loved ones would be a good thing. Hopefully they are understanding about this disorder. As far as your sexuality, what do YOU want? And being undecided is also ok!

Let me ask you this question. What do YOU want as far as your sexuality?