Will it ever go away?

I have been dealing with soocd now for two years (sometimes it’s worse than other times)..I was doing just fine and have been talking to a guy I really like. We are about to go to the beach together and BAM my ocd is making me question everything if I am even into him and if I like girls instead..I’ve never had a crush on a girl. I’m terrified that this theme will come true..I just want to be able to enjoy this time at the beach, but I’m scared it’s going to be ruined because of me thinking I want to be with a girl :( any words of wisdom or advice would be greatly appreciated because the ocd is LOUD right now!

Sexual Orientation OCD

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Date posted: 1y

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whatif

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Date posted: 1y

@jserrano92 Yes I feel the same way!

whatif

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Date posted: 1y

@jser92 I’m just scared because this isn’t the first go around I had this theme I had it right at the end of high school before college..I had a boyfriend all throughout high school we even went to college together..but somehow my mind still tells me I’m a lesbian I just don’t get it and I don’t want to be one…this is so frustrating and debilitating I just want to enjoy my life and enjoy this beach trip with a guy I like but I feel like ocd is going to get in the way 😔

whatif

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@jser92 You’re so right! I’m 30 nice to know we are close in age and have been through similar things it’s comforting! Thank you for commenting your words really helped me have hope! God bless!! ✨

Anonymous

Date posted: 23w

anyone else?

So I’ve SOOCD since I was in 8 th grade and it got really bad when I had an intrusive thought as to what if I was bi. And ever since then I’ve had self destructive behavior to where I would think the thoughts on purpose or about women and checking them out and flirting with them. ( I identify as straight) and over time these thoughts and self destructive behavior hasn’t bothered me and now they feel apart of me I know apart of it is ocd but also it’s me like me willingly looking at women and me wanting to have sexual thoughts or feel aroused and in reality if I never had ocd I would never think this way I could live without women and never sleeping with them I do have a bf and I love him and am attracted to him rn thought bc of what happened last night with a women it’s hard to feel that can anyone relate?

Meg4n

Date posted: 17w

so-ocd seems to be flaring up again

I haven’t posted on here in a few days because I was feeling better but the past two days I’ve climbed my way back down the rabbit hole it seems. There’s this guy that I’m interested in and he seems to be interested in me. He keeps calling me pretty and how he’d like to meet me (he’s friends with my friends but I haven’t met him properly yet lmao) But I keep getting thoughts like “you’re not interested, you like women” and so on. I was feeling giddy about the whole thing up until two days ago where everything just seemed to shut off like my attraction, excitement and so on. I can’t believe I’m going through this again and I’m really trying to accept the thoughts but it’s so debilitating as I really want a bf but my brain keeps passing through thoughts that I do not want at all. Does anyone relate? Or have any coping strategies to help?

Sexual Orientation OCD

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Date posted: 11w

How long for HOCD.? (SOOCD)

I feel I have HOCD FOR MORE THAN 10 years now. Basically all my ocd started since me and my husband started dating for real…. Will it ever go away? Will I ever be happy? Will I ever know? I don’t know… How long for you? Edit for me it’s more SO OCD cause I think I’m bisexual

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