I feel awful! I’m panicking.
I just need help. I’m in a spiral right now! I feel like I offended God with an intrusive thought. I’m scared. I know it’s not rational. My brain is making me think it’s me, but I don’t want to think that way. I’m scared.
God knows your heart and knows those thoughts aren’t you and don’t define you. I dealt with this A LOTT when I was younger. It made me cry and think I was gonna go to hell. I never knew it was OCD until now I guess. It’s okay, he loves you and he knows you so well.
@rosepetaltears Thank you!! This is so helpful ❤️✝️
Think of this: God not only knows you have OCD, he created you this way. As painful as it is, He loves you and made you exactly the way you are for a reason. It’s just a challenge to overcome, one that He will give you the strength to endure. 🙏🙏🙏
@Andrei 9000 ❤️❤️❤️✝️✝️✝️
Thank you all for helping me with my spiral
I think I commited the worst sin. I had no bad intentions but then I realized I might have thought something bad. I'm so scared and I don't know if I'm forgiven. I'm trying not to replay what happened in my head but it's so hard and I'm so scared.
Just had a huge spiral. I don’t know how it got started but I started having intrusive images really bad and maybe it’s because I was ruminating worrying that I brought it up so then it got to where every object I looked at an image popped into my head of me harming a child. And then I was literally looking down at my bed laying on my stomach so I wasn’t looking at anything, and I was so scared and nervous I was trying to think of the at wouldn’t trigger an image but accidentally kept thinking about random objects and then more images kept popping up and I feel so guilty and disgusting because I feel like it was definitely my fault. I DONT WANT THIS. And it hurts so much because I get no amusement or enjoyment or arousal from these images. I literally feel nothing for children. This didn’t start happening until a few weeks ago and I don’t have any idea why but it’s SO graphic and violent I feel like my morals have left me. I feel like someone who cares wouldn’t be eating, being around family, hopeful. I don’t want to do but I couldn’t live as a p. I can’t live with the images forever it’s so much to deal with I feel so guilty for living. I used to want to be a mom one day, not to play off of anyone’s emotions I feel like I am, but I’m 21 I had period issues didn’t have my period for a year and was really upset at times because I thought I wouldn’t get to be a mom one day. And now this is happening and it’s just vile and scary and it’s so confusing to me. I don’t understand.
Just got an intrusive thought and I’m having a panic attack as I write this. Someone called me weird today, somebody said I can’t listen at all, then someone else said something hurtful. Been feeling down today and then as I was eating I got an intrusive thought that said I am going depressed again. I’ve been going crazy. Fidgeting, bouncing my leg, sped up breathing… And I feel light headed and I just need somebody to tell me everything is okay. I can’t tell my mother because I told her I think I have OCD and she simply brushed it off and she will get frustrated with me if I tell her I am having a panic attack…
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