Let’s get to the chase here . Will I have to live with this crap my life ? Will it ever go away ? And when I’m talking about it going away I’m not talking about remission or where the syntoms get better , no I’m talking about if my life will ever be the same where this crap is no longer there . Sometimes I feel like i can’t even control it.

I think part of the problem is that you’re calling it “ crap “ . Do I understand why you would and is it probably a crappy situation ? Definitely. But calling it that gives it power because it tells your brain that it’s something to be feared. You have to tell yourself that it may not be the easiest situation , but that you’re strong enough to power through and you technically don’t have to let it ruin your life. Through CBT and rewiring your brain , you can change your perception of the situation and your thought pattern will be far less destructive. The goal isn’t to make the thoughts go away , the goal is to become accepting of them and not let them dictate your life , and it may follow that they go away. But it’s normal to have intrusive thoughts every now and then , getting rid of them completely is unrealistic. I wish you the very best

@xiiandrew yes exactly, it’s basically learning to live in harmony with your intrusive thoughts. @gianfranco They won’t go away but you can slowly temper your reaction to them. It takes time and effort with the help of therapy, maybe you need medication as well. However life does get better, it’s not about erasing the thoughts it’s about desensitizing yourself to them. Learning how to let the anxiety flow out your body, I’ve had intrusive thoughts allllll day but I learned how to let them exist without much reaction. I know it sounds like spiritual bullshit but with ERP it’s possible. I honestly contemplated suicide like 2 years ago, but I fought through and now I gained back control of my life. It’s possible you can do it.

Talking about it always makes it sound stupid when I think about it but when it's happening it's like you can't get out of what's happening. I've only told one family member about it and it always comes to that, I know it's stupid but it literally starts happening from the time I wake up. Maybe it's like any other habit, just replace it with new ones, idk.

Same question I always ask. At this point I've almost accepted the thoughts (if that's where this problem ended) its the repetitions & actions I do to "stop" these bad things from happening. I know I can't think things into existence, yet I keep doing rituals or whatever they're called. Takes up all my time & it's frustrating. I did them as I was typing this.