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Im super scared
I am super scared that i might be trans please help i feel i relate to their stories 😭😭😭😭
I am super scared that i might be trans please help i feel i relate to their stories 😭😭😭😭
Yeah and that's the way people with Harm OCD feel when they read about people who snap. That's how people with SO OCD feel when they read about experiences of different sexualities, it's just another trick
@Nicola$ But i feel i relate to most of their signs 💔💔 iam really scared I really can’t describe my state now
@star1232 Yeah I know, I know how that feels, it sucks
@star1232 It's like you are doom and it's all over, like danger is coming from everywhere
@Nicola$ Yees and everything is against you , even the 1% hope
@star1232 Yeah, pretty much
My problem now is with my past memories and signs 💔💔💔😭
Trust me, I have tons of those
@Nicola$ But i do not think they are valid as mine 😭
@star1232 I think the same, but the other way around, I think yours are probably silly and mine are real concerning
@Nicola$ If they are silly I wouldn’t suffer that much
@star1232 I didnt meant it like that, I meant it like, whatever you say to me about you, I would just think your OCD is making you think that way
@Nicola$ I wish , i wish that what i have is just ocd but a big NO , this is just a realization that im not what i tought my whole life
@star1232 I feel the same way all the time, about my HOCD, here's the thing, before I knew this was OCD I admited I was gay, and I was happy about that, then I obsses over it, so, there's no way I'm straight, but you, this is so againts you, that you are literally being tour by it
@Nicola$ I also have the same story as you , at first i wasn’t anxious and felt ok 👌🏻 then I started ruminating
@star1232 Can we just talk somewhere? I'm feeling like shit now, so helping you migth help me
I am also starting to develop a true dysphoria 😭
You would feel the same if you were scare of having a tumor, or of having Alzheimer, you would "manifest" symtomps, and it's much more easy with disphoria cause all the "Symtomps" are on your head
@Nicola$ I suffered from this in the beginning of my hocd , i was convinced i am a man since i am not straight, i completely disconnected from my self and femininity and every man i saw i felt i wanted to be him , i keep looking for bisexuals and lesbians who are totally feminine and love other feminine girls, i lived in a very depressive and anxious state where I suffered from attraction to girls and feeling i want to be a man , but then I started to accept a little bit the idea that being not straight doesn’t mean i am a man and i was convinced that i am not a man and always wanted to be female even if im a lesbian ( because i felt i relate too much with lesbian stories where they didnt felt comfortable in dating guys ) but then i felt like at least i am bi because i have that sexual attraction to guys and my first childhood love was a boy and loved him so much….. then boooom I started to remember very old memories where i wanted to imitate guys so much , where i wanted to have that masculine vibe, where i got influenced by masculine girls especially if they are feminine outside because i always hated to have masculine outside look or outfit, where i hated the shape of boobs and found them ugly , and the strangest thing ever is always when i read something in my head i read it in a masculine voice in my mind or masculine actions pops in my mind , also if i think to do something, i always get that image of me in a masculine way doing it whereas in reality i do it in my usual feminine way ( iam so scared that this is a hidden desire being a man )
My boyfriend is ftm, and I’m very supportive of him and his journey with gender. It opened a lot of conversations between us about each others gender/sexuality. I’ve known for a long time that i’m pan, but I’ve struggled a lot with my own gender. My OCD causes me to doubt myself a lot, one day i feel hyper feminine and have no desire to identify as a man, but the next day I am extremely dysphoric about my body/hair/voice and wonder if I’m ftm as well? and then it goes away the next day. Some days I don’t even feel feminine OR masculine. I spend a lot of my time ruminating over if i’m trans, and abt the possibility of me spending the rest of my life either not knowing, or settling for whatever’s easiest for myself and everyone around me. I don’t know if I actually believe I’m a man, or if I’m pretending, or if it’s just in my head. Its like I don’t know what to trust since my opinion is different every day, and it feels like I can’t trust my own intuition. It’s starting to affect my sex drive, my sleep, my self confidence, and my self image. It’s really confusing me and I’m wondering if anyone can relate or has some advice. Thank you:)
im so scared that this is just denial and that im actuall gay. idk what to do anymore i need help. its just constant anxiety in my chest and i hate it. is there anything i can do to help?
Is it normal for this theme to legit make you feel like you’re the opposite gender and that’s what you want to be and it’s very convincing? And you just keep getting images and scenarios in ur head of you transitioning and actually going through with it? This is sooo scary and i don’t feel like myself at all anymore. It’s making me not feel like a woman or myself of how I’ve always been my whole life. I’m really nervous and scared, it’s really make me feel like this is my true feelings/ self ): it’s causing me to feel weird k. My own body and feel weird about my body parts. Like my brain is literally thinking as a trans person would feel or think like wtf??? Is this normal?!? Pls someone let me know. & and it’s making me feel like I’m attracted to woman all the sudden and i keep getting flashes of that in my head. I’m in a relationship and im scared this is gonna ruin things bc the way this theme is making me feel and my body. Ugh ihml, need some advice. Has anyone experienced exactly this??
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