I know I love my boyfriend but I have this constant weight in my chest then I get anxious that I don’t actually love him. What can I do 😭😭 We almost broke up yesterday and I finally had some emotion to the fact of him leaving bc of my rocd. I lost it. I don’t want to lose him but I have no feelings towards him. I’m not excited, I am fearful. I’m scared. Please help me
you're not alone. I can't help you because I feel like we are in the same boat here. I know how urgent the feeling is to try and figure what the best course of action is from here, but just know that your ocd will always need more and more certainty. it's an insatiable need, so all you can do when you feel this way is donyour absolute best to put that energy into something different. I know it's unfathomably hard, half of the time I can't get put of bed because of my ocd. but remember you're not alone in this experience.
I went to therapy for ROCD for the same reason. I know I shouldn’t give you reassurance but I will tell you what my therapist told me because I see a lot of myself in what you said. You said you are fearful, scared. This is not “feeling nothing”, this is being afraid. From the looks of it, you seem afraid of breaking up, of losing him. It doesn’t look like a person who doesn’t feel anything for his partner to me… besides, if you are scared and anxious, do you really expect yourself to feel any other emotion? You’re asking wayyy too much, dear. Don’t be scared, once you realise that a person who worries about losing another person is just expressing their love in a way, it will get easier. I hope I helped in some way, I know this thing helped me when I needed it! Stay safe ❤️ don’t dump him, be patient, decisions can’t be made in a state of fear!
@asiaf Are you still with your partner? I just feel there is no coming back from this. All I think all day everyday is that I don’t love him anymore I hate it 😭😭😭
@laurfe7 I love the fact that you said that you “hate it”, because it gives me more confidence in what I told you. If you hate not loving your partner, you love him. I know it’s hard to see it now, but you will see it in the future, I promise. I am still with my partner and let me tell you, our relationship has never been easy due to my OCD. If I told you the many times I felt “nothing” and I was desperate about it, the many times I tried to break up with him, the amount of intrusive thoughts I get, you’d be surprised. I’ll tell you one thing though, the fact that I fought for this relationship was proof enough that everything was just inside my OCD bubble and, most importantly, the fact that you and I are worrying and fighting for this is a literal definition of love.
@asiaf Can we chat? I would love that. Thank you for your words it is so helpful. I just want to feel something again
@laurfe7 Sure thing!
@asiaf I can’t figure out how to message you
@laurfe7 I don’t think there’s an option here! I do have Reddit though, it’s the only social media my OCD left me to use without engaging in compulsions 😂
@asiaf Same username? I deleted it bc I was going crazy but would love to talk
@laurfe7 you can find me at u/Economy_Airport_4728 most random name, I know lol
@asiaf I messaged you
How to deal with rocd? It feels like im forcing it all the time and faking it towards him (maybe its because of the anxiety) and it makes me so hopeless. It feels like i just have to give up and im not capable of loving him. I don’t wanna give up and break up with him, but im exhausted.
Can someone please help I’m really struggling with my rocd i keep getting these images of me breaking up with my bf and the feelings of wanting to feel so real and it’s giving me so much anxiety. I was so in love with him last week then when these thoughts and images came in it feels like my feelings have gone and it’s upsetting me so much
I just want to love him!!! It’s not fair!! Everytime I talk to him I wanna break up… I can’t tell if ROCD is there anymore… please… I want this urge to go away!!! 😭 What if breaking up is the only way… to know. I don’t wanna break up with him. Did anyone on here 100% believed they lost feelings bc of obsessing? 😢💔
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