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you're not alone. I can't help you because I feel like we are in the same boat here. I know how urgent the feeling is to try and figure what the best course of action is from here, but just know that your ocd will always need more and more certainty. it's an insatiable need, so all you can do when you feel this way is donyour absolute best to put that energy into something different. I know it's unfathomably hard, half of the time I can't get put of bed because of my ocd. but remember you're not alone in this experience.

I went to therapy for ROCD for the same reason. I know I shouldn’t give you reassurance but I will tell you what my therapist told me because I see a lot of myself in what you said. You said you are fearful, scared. This is not “feeling nothing”, this is being afraid. From the looks of it, you seem afraid of breaking up, of losing him. It doesn’t look like a person who doesn’t feel anything for his partner to me… besides, if you are scared and anxious, do you really expect yourself to feel any other emotion? You’re asking wayyy too much, dear. Don’t be scared, once you realise that a person who worries about losing another person is just expressing their love in a way, it will get easier. I hope I helped in some way, I know this thing helped me when I needed it! Stay safe ❤️ don’t dump him, be patient, decisions can’t be made in a state of fear!