Having a rough night. Does anyone out there get obsessive Images and Thoughts 24/7?

Do you feel physically sick like your whole body and head aches cause that’s how i feel when i get an ocd attack

Have you tried exiting yourself

Stop trying to find out what the thoughts mean

Saw your post got deleted

Like exiting your current state mentally and think about positive thoughts

just observe how you feel kind of in the 3rd person like a doctor would

Don’t avoid the intrusive thoughts when thet come along though just breathe and go in that state of mind where you want better for yourself

Technically yes

Stop avoiding by literally just doing nothing at all, stay relaxed

So basically this is how my anxiety starts : “intrusive image/ false memory/ thought or feeling” -> Anxiety feelings -> more thoughts -> me questioning why I have these thoughts in the first place -> spiral

I also keep having random strange thoughts about being stuck in a daydream or stuck having the same thoughts about a past event that didn’t actually happen. It’s almost as if I’m afraid of this thought and feeling the thoughts even before it comes up

Yeah it happens often for me

Yes yes yes...

Well I usually get stomach aches and I start shaking

But my OCD images are about violent stuff, sexual, and fails memories. Also existence and relationship worries

What is exiting myself?

Yes I actually am kind of a maladaptive daydreamer ... so I always daydream about a better version of myself

It does make me feel better but I hate maladaptive daydreaming sometimes. It takes a lot of energy out of me

But how can I stop avoiding?? Is my daydreaming considered avoiding?

Okay understandable. But is talking to myself considered a compulsion too?

Yes !!! I’m always trying to find and end to what was causing me anxiety!

Just ruminating and also trying to figure out why I’m having these thoughts

It’s never been THIS bad

It’s almost as if they are coming one right after the other

It’s hard to describe but I think what terrifies me about these thoughts is that ..... It’s almost as if my body feels like it’s going to shut down or that I’m going to die suddenly ( like black out ) And that these thoughts are kind of like .... never ending images that make me feel sad and uncomfortable. and it’s almost as if my body is trying to react because of my “escape mode” like these uncomfortable images that I’ve never seen before come up and it makes me feel like they will never go away and that I am actually trapped in my own subconscious. And that I’m trapped in my head too. I’m SO terrified about death that I think about what life might be after death if there is one. And I guess if I suddenly die that’s all I will be witnessing is these thoughts if that makes sense

I guess my own mind is trying to observe itself and make sure I’m conscious

I don’t know how to explain it

I guess this is also triggering my suicidal OCD and existential OCD. Like this makes me fear my own existence

Okay