Am I going crazy from existential OCD and fear of self-identity?

Existential ocd and will I go crazy?

I think that basically the thought right now is a fear of being alone both physically/literally and philosophically. It feels like an excess of awareness that I am an individual, I am me and only her, always and forever. And who am I? Can I trust myself? Am I 'trapped' inside myself? Anyway, a lot of thoughts about self-worth and identity. Then I get scared of not being able to trust myself, of depending on myself to do things from the most basic like brushing my teeth to, I don't know, working and supporting myself, controlling myself, etc... and then I feel scared of going crazy because I don't think these thoughts are normal and that makes me feel even more alone, even less connected to others.

Username: Tea and HoneyTea and Honey

Date posted: 11w ago

These thoughts are very normal when you have OCD. So what you are experiencing is normal. OCD gives us all kinds of doubts, loops, unanswerable questions, etc. You will not go crazy. People with OCD do not go crazy. They just suffer a lot. The best thing to do is to treat the OCD. Doing ERP is usually the best. Have you tried it?

Username: Asiul79Asiul79

Date posted: 11w ago

@Tea and Honey Thank you very much 🥹💗

Username: hanysm@gmail.comhanysm@gmail...

Date posted: 11w ago

I see that you're grouping things together. Questioning who you are, why you are, and what you are is a valuable part of soul-searching. At some point in life, everyone reflects on these questions. The challenge is that we often feel we must reach a definitive conclusion. In reality, we may never know for sure because it's a journey we must undertake to discover ourselves. The problem arises when these meaningful questions become debilitating and hold us back. Not knowing the answers doesn't mean we should doubt ourselves in the basic functions of life and our daily routines. It simply means you're maturing into a higher level of thinking and accepting that we might not have all the answers right now, but we need to continue living our lives. We might need support from others, whether it's a loved one or a therapist. You're okay, just trust yourself for what you are now, and things will eventually fall into place. Have a great day! 😊

Username: Asiul79Asiul79

Date posted: 11w ago

@hanysm@gmail.com I’ll save this words. Thank you thank you

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 11w ago

Going through this right now. It's very hard. Knowing you're alive, you're in control, there's no "way out" all leading to that trapped feeling.. like claustrophobia? We'll get through this

Username: Asiul79Asiul79

Date posted: 11w ago

@Anonymous Exactly!

Username: hanysm@gmail.comhanysm@gmail...

Date posted: 11w ago

This is the core issue. When you start developing feelings for certain thoughts, you intensify the urge to find immediate answers. Have you ever heard the phrase "sleep on it"? Essentially, you should remind yourself to revisit the matter later and focus on something else for now. Think about how often you've encountered a problem that eventually resolved itself over time, or how solutions naturally came to you. The same principle applies to these questions—they require time and a wealth of experiences to be answered. Simply acknowledging this can inspire you to break free from the illusion of being trapped by the emotions these thoughts generate. Have a great day 😃

Username: reaganmarie

Date posted: 50w ago

Existential OCD

For the past week-ish I have been having a really scary existential crisis that feels like it is stemming from ocd. It started with me being freaking out that i’m going to die one day, then it merge into me being freaked out about what was going to happen after I die (mostly the thought of nothingness). I found some very brief relief in some spiritual beliefs and watching psychic medium readings but then I started think about even bigger and harder to answer questions such as, “if there is a God, who created God?”, “Is the afterlife scary?”, “Could the afterlife end one day?” “What is the point of anything at all?”, “Will the sun exploding destroy whatever afterlife exist?” Really ridiculous questions. I truly believe that there is something after death and something that exists as a life force science cannot explain, but the fact that my mind can’t comprehend or figure it out is really really scary. I feel as if I am going crazy. I have been thinking about nothing but the universe and the meaning behind it all and where it all came from. I can’t enjoy anything anymore. I just want to lay in bed all day and even that is hard. I have been non-stop watching videos about people’s beliefs about this topic trying desperately to find some sort of answer and I am starting to think that may be a compulsion. I am trying my best to remind myself that I when I die I will have all the answers to these questions and I don’t need to worry about this right now because it truly doesn’t affect anything or change anything in my life but it is really hard. I feel as if I have “uncovered” something and my life will never return to normal again. I am terrified that I am going to go crazy or start having hallucinations and that I’ve ruined my life by researching into something so complex and not understandable at all. Any kind of suggestions or anything would be helpful, I hate dealing with this and feeling so crazy and hopeless.

Username: Anonym101

Date posted: 36w ago

Existential and more…

The thoughts I’ve been stuggling most recently is ”is the world real or am i really in a simulation” (solipsism and such) of course i dont truly belive in it but it feels impossible to disprove, and the thought of being completely alone distresses me greatly. I know i shouldnt ruminate but it feels nearly impossible to not when everything i exprience is in doubt. It also relates to my original harm-ocd. Anyone who can relate?

Username: Not_kw

Date posted: 26w ago

Existential ocd and fear of going crazy

Hey guys, I’ve been dealing with a lot of DPDR with my anxiety and ocd being pretty constant. I have a fear I’m going into psychosis. Idk if you can be aware of your own psychosis and I know we’re not supposed to ask for reassurance but I truly feel crazy and the dpdr and existential ocd is not helping. I feel like I can’t even do the exposures because my anxiety is so high. Anyone else been through this?

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