Really need some advice

So recently I made a post about having the theme of fear of psychosis and schizophrenia which has led to the fear of not getting sleep and being scared I’ll go crazy and start hallucinating from the lack of sleep. Last night I was able to sleep some hours after not being able to properly sleep for 4 nights (like I actually dreamt) but of course when I woke up I got the the thought “what if you didn’t sleep and you think you did” “what if you’re just hallucinating it” it made me instantly sick to my stomach! Of course I know I slept but these thoughts just get crazier everyday making me feel like I’m actually crazy. I just want to cry. It’s a constant battle everyday and I’m just so tired. I’ve never had these thoughts before. If anyone has gone through this please tell me what helped you. I miss getting home and looking forward to sleeping not being scared I won’t. And I miss just living my life and not having thoughts questioning if it’s my reality or not. Please I could really use some advice.

Username: MalisimoMalisimo

Date posted: 10w ago

I commented before on your last post but didn’t go into detail about my sleep ocd. I had the sleep somatic ocd for about a year. I had probably 100 nights of zero sleep insomnia over that year, and used benzos to sleep many other nights. I know it is pure torture. You sometimes are not sure you slept. Now I just go to sleep peacefully again after recovering. What you are doing is trying to solve sleep. You are thinking about sleep and making it a problem to solve. Will I sleep? Did I sleep? What will happen if I don’t sleep? Will I go crazy? In reality there is no problem to solve. As you saw last night you can sleep, ok problem solved. Now it’s time to move on. Sleep is not something to solve, in fact if you don’t focus on it you will just fall asleep guaranteed because it’s natural for your body to rest. OCD is all about trying to solve a problem with no answers. When you go to bed tonight tell yourself I’m am simply here to rest, I don’t have to sleep. When my body and mind are tired enough they will sleep and I don’t control this. You can read this to yourself before bed. There is nothing to solve, I don’t need to know anything, nothing needs to be controlled, don’t think about it, goodnight, end of story. You will be fine and overcome this. OCD once you figure out how it works isn’t so powerful as it seems.

Username: thinkalot24thinkalot24

Date posted: 9w ago

I’ve never commented before but I’m here to tell you you aren’t alone. Sleep ocd is something I have struggled with for years. But I have recovered from it. I learned to be uncomfortable with sleeping. Years ago it scared me so much now when the thoughts happen I try to allow them. Just know you are not alone this theme is so tough. I’m proud of you

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 9w ago

@thinkalot24 Glad to say I got sleep this weekend after a week of just running on 3-4 hours. I was able to sleep my 8 hours of deep sleep drool and everything 😂 one post that helped me was nothing lasts forever. It definitely was my worse theme but I’m learning everyday how to get through these themes and not let them bother me .

Username: thinkalot24thinkalot24

Date posted: 9w ago

@Anonymous ha I’m glad to hear. That’s also one thing I have learned with ocd. No theme no thought will last forever no matter how scary it is. Def having a tough time right now too and reading this and hearing how you deal with it has helped me too. I’m learning too. OCD is hard :/ but we’ve got this

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 9w ago

@thinkalot24 Im sorry to hear that. It really is hard dealing with this mental illness and how our minds become our worst enemy. An ocd spike hit me hard in August. I couldn’t eat for days and cried for a whole week straight from how scared I was of the thoughts I was having. I never felt so scared in my life. Right now I’m doing better-ish, I can’t afford therapy so I’m just taking advice of people who have done ERP for the themes I have and like they say sit with the uncertainty and uncomfortableness and just be like “maybe I do, maybe not, maybe I am” towards my thoughts. So I still have my moments of falling back but I remember to keep going and not let this bring me down. I try my best to enjoy the good moments that I have and remember how loved I am and that I’m not alone. If you ever need to talk I’m here.

Username: thinkalot24thinkalot24

Date posted: 9w ago

@Anonymous Thank you right back at you!! Hearing that I’m not alone has helped so much.

Username: Lilly2442!Lilly2442!

Date posted: 8w ago

How are you? I have the exact same fears!

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 3y ago

Really thought about whether or not to post this but I’m really struggling and wondering if anyone has gone through the same thing/what helped them out of it. I have fears of psychosis/schiz/delusions and I started having intrusive thoughts that sound and feel delusional even though I know they’re not true, and I don’t actually believe them. I obsess over whether I think they’re true and if I’m actually delusional, then I start to feel really disconnected and dreamy (like derealization?) but then I get worried that I’m actually dissociating and/or losing my mind. I rly struggle w these thoughts as they make me so uncomfortable and make me feel like I am delusional. I will reread things I wrote, rethink things I have already said to make sure they’re coherent, argue w my thoughts, constantly check to make sure I know who I am, where I am, know who my family is, etc. to ensure I’m not losing my mind. My themes switch from this, to harm ocd and I’m just really having a hard time w the thoughts mixed w the disconnected feeling. It makes me want to stay in bed forever and cry because I don’t wanna feel this way anymore. Any advice would be so helpful.

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Username: Anonymous 567

Date posted: 30w ago

Any advice?

So I’ve been in a pretty rough spiral/ocd spike for about a month now. I used to have this theme of being severely mentally ill or schizophrenic or psychotic and it went away for like 6 months and now it’s back full force. I have never hallucinated but I have this intense fear of what if I do. So with this theme I have these delusional thoughts that are just bizarre and I know how delusional they are but they feel so real and scary like I believe them. My body reacts by my stomach feeling uneasy and I’ll get a chill and just feel like I’m gonna be sick. Sometimes it doesn’t even have to be a thought per say.. it can just be a weird sensation or feeling and then I’ll become extremely anxious and borderline feel like I could panic. I can usually talk myself down from a full blown panic attack and but it’s just so distressing and I’m wondering if anyone else goes through this? I think it stems from a core fear of losing my family, ending up institutionalized away from my family and my family being devastated and judging me bc I “went crazy” please if anyone else can relate I’d appreciate any advice.

Username: hannahsheppy

Date posted: 19w ago

Dreaming horribly

Hey everyone. So I have ocd, as well as everyone here of course, but! I’m having a bad issue. So I deal with fear of psychosis very badly and I got a lot of anxiety from having dpdr a few years ago that have lingered . Well Ive been dreaming very badly and having terrible nightmares and in my dreams I’m screaming to wake up. I don’t understand it. But its like in my dreams im so so scared of dpdr and psychosis and scary stuff happens in them. It’s causing a lot of distress , to the point I dread sleeping. Now in real life I’m scared sometimes I’ll see or hear things and I’m scared I’ll be stuck in dpdr forever and everything. But I’ve been doing better at calming down. But my dreams are so so so bad. I mean I’m waking up sweating and then being scared to get up bc I’m having horrible nightmares with weird shit happening in them. Anyone experience anything like this. And now my heads like what if I’m getting psychosis 🤦‍♀️. It’s like no break for me. It’s horrible.

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