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- 28w ago
Magical thinking
I constantly think that if I don't pray to God to protect everyone everyday that something bad will happen because I didn't ask to be protected. It's tiring and it sucks. ☹️
I constantly think that if I don't pray to God to protect everyone everyday that something bad will happen because I didn't ask to be protected. It's tiring and it sucks. ☹️
this is literally me. It also stems because the way i was raised to fear god made me paranoid, not “comforted”. God is like a stalker for me, not someone who protects my family. I only feel the need to say that because i feel threatened that if i dont pray to god or attempt to make a connection with god, god will kill my family and everything that i love. (sorry for lowercase g’s irdc to uppercase it, that honestly just stresses me out more having to think about that lol)
I also just felt/feel like god is just someone who has power over me but to use it mostly in a negative way unless i beg for mercy. It feels like my soul is kidnapped. And i feel uncomfortable. Like does god watch me in the shower? does god see me in the bathroom? does god look at me when i engage in my ocd repetition actions and does god laugh? like why. its just weird and uncomfortable and it honestly still gets in the way of my new spiritual journey
Do you think of God as this monster, ready to do evil if you don't pray? Do you think God needs your prayers? What would your prayers add to His kingdom? God is Loving and Merciful. Your prayers are for yourself, and only you benefit from it.
Check out Mark DeJesus! He has so much content and has really helped me see the root of my OCD...so much comes down to Trusting God's heart for me as I am and receiving His love as I am!!! So hard to do, but also so beautiful
Thanks for the advice 🫶🫶
thank you for saying this. i have the EXACT same issue. i feel like if i dont pray a very specific, very long prayer about keeping my family members and loved ones safe from xyz, then i will be the cause of those bad things happening to them. it is so exhausting and confusing. im right there with you. and then i feel like god is angry with me for like “using” him to relieve my OCD. and that starts a whole other spiral
Yea especially with the "using him to help my ocd" it feels like I'm a horrible person, I'm glad in not the only one :]
How do yall handle intrusive thoughts !? I never realized that was a thing I think I’ve been dealing with this sense I was in elementary school I remember getting on the bus and had the the worry my mom was gonna get in an accident and it’s just gone from there
Does anyone question that they'll go to hell because of your intrusive thoughts. I feel so scared about that because I grew up Catholic
Hey I feel like I just have this evil like whirring feeling of anxiety and like “something bad is gonna happen” and feeling you’re going to do things against God or like you already have I guess?
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