Please help me :(

I completely understand what your going through I’ve had ocd for about 7 years now and I’ve had a different couple Themes but pedophile ocd was the one that my ocd stuck to because it found out that’s were I’m more vulnerable. OCD will try to look for ways to attack your morals and what you believe , it’ll convince you that your something that you really aren’t. I can say that you will get better with time and also putting in the work yourself. I had 4 years where I was only experiencing 1-2 thoughts a month without medication, but unfortunately the beginning of this year it came back really hard and found myself coming back to therapy and getting back on medication which I’m okay with because it’s something we will face . I’ll give you some advice, ocd wants you to do compulsions because that’s its way of getting power , it’ll want you avoid places , children , people , etc even though it might seem like some relief doing those things your actually fueling your ocd and hurting yourself in the long run. I can see that you use the word “p” don’t be afraid to type out the word it’s okay to write it on here since it is a safe place and I know sometimes we don’t want to type the word because our ocd might tell us that we are one if we type the whole word . You want to change your perspective on these thoughts and instead of seeing them as fearful see them as a joke . What I mean by that is to separate yourself and your ocd . Give her/him a nickname that you can remember and identify it when you experience it . For example, shadow (which is the nickname of my ocd) tells me “ why did you look at that child that way , your attracted to it and your a pedophile and want to sexually touch it. My response would be “ oh shadow your so funny man , how did you know I want to touch that child.” Sounds crazy right ? But by doing this your showing your ocd that your not afraid of what he’s saying . You’re changing your perspective and seeing it as a joke instead of seeing it as if you actually are one and getting scared of it. It takes a lot of practice and it might cause some anxiety but this is a tool I use when I’m stuck on a certain thought and it works like magic . Essentially, whatever your ocd is telling you , you want to go along with it in a joking matter . You eventually shock your ocd because it’s thinking “why isn’t he getting scared of me anymore, I don’t have power over him “ and with time it won’t bother you as much . But if you haven’t had therapy get into ERP and see a therapist. Another piece of advice is not to avoid children or certain places. Don’t run away from you fear run towards it ! This you can work with your therapist. Good luck !

I understand what your going through dude it’s so hard and uncomfortable and debiliting to go through, I’ll have thoughts that tell me I want to be one or how good it would feel to be one and that I should just give in and it makes me feel sick and scared because that’s the last thing I’d ever want to be, I hate how no matter what I do I can’t convince my ocd that I’m not a P, I’ve literally tried to take my life a couple months ago before I knew it was pocd because of how bad I felt and I genuinely though I was a P, I hate how ocd does this to us, I have hope we’ll get through this though I’m sorry your struggling with this man it’s so fucking hard and painful to go through