The thought of being with a woman used to make me uneasy and sad/depressed. But now I feel nothing when I think about them. Which now makes me feel anxious because I feel like it’s a sign that I want it. I feel like I’m in a never ending loop. Also my attraction to boys is gone and idk how to get it back :( I feel so lost Help and advice would be nice
I’m happy to say i’ve overcome my soocd (and moved onto another theme 💀) but i went through same thing as you. What helped is recognising that i can’t trust anything my brain is telling me when i’m in a state of anxiety. As you said, you feel anxious that you don’t feel anxious about your thoughts. It’s a loop. OCD will latch onto anything and try make you feel guilty - whether it’s your thoughts OR (in your case) your reaction to those thoughts. Keep marching on and you’ll do just fine.
@Dragos If I may ask when did you got to the point that those thoughts didn’t make you anxious anymore- and THAT didn’t make you anxious anymore ? Cause I’m doing these practices and they make me feel less anxious but in return it makes me feel anxious and it’s so frustrating and I just want it to end
@Allotofthoughts As weird as it sounds, I can’t remember. During that time, from the moment I woke up to the time I fell asleep it was nothing but anxiety and ruminating as you are right now. I thought my world was coming to an end and that I’d lost who i was. There was a point were I just learnt to live with it and the thoughts kinda just fizzled out and life returned back to normal - that’s why it’s so hard to pin point at what time the anxiety stopped, it was a gradual process. Don’t get me wrong, I still have intrusive thoughts from time to time but I shrug it off as just a little quirk my brain has from the months of ruminating. I know it’s difficult but just soldier on. You’re stronger than you think. Just power through it and take it day by day 😎
Yes, same, its like im not freaking out and when i get thoughts about me with a women i even feel like “you want it” and it even makes my heart beats faster and makes me feel like i actually want it and sometimes even like wtf am i excited or what? This is so weird and thats why i feel it must be real because i dont feel anything for guys :(
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This feels weird. I feel like I’m gay, and when I “accept” My thoughts I don’t feel good or pleasure, just this weight on my chest. Like my mind says “okay you’re gay see” but when I think of me in gay scenarios I feel no pleasure at all. Yet I lost my attraction to women. My mind still says I’m gay though I feel nothing towards men. But it appears my attraction to women disappeared as well. What is this? Why did I used to have extremely mad anxiety over gay thoughts and now that I finally faced my thoughts I feel nothing as well? Like seriously what is this. I used to be girl crazy like to another level. Now I’m not attracted to women at all apparently but when I “accept” my thoughts and say ok I’m gay, I feel nothing towards men either. Is this still ocd? And why when I do have anxiety with gay thoughts it seems like I AM attracted to men. I don’t understand this. Do any of you have any experience and share some insight?
It’s like I get anxiety towards any girl now. This feeling of First, thinking they are pretty Then, getting these series of emotions I can’t describe but there’s a hole in my stomach Last, Anxiety. A lot of anxiety. Feels like I want to *date* them These “attractions” feel so real. Like in actually gay. It’s like nothing can convince I am not anymore. It feels too real. And when I see hot guys, i Can just acknowledge they are hot now. Nothing else. I really just want to cry. It feels as if I was always like this. But for some reason it feels like I lost a part of myself. Like I lost my interest in guys. . I’ll never be with a woman, but I don’t think I’ll ever even be with a guy. The only thing I feel is anxiety. They feel too real for ocd to be behind this all, for this to just not be... real.
Is there anyone that’s lost ALL attraction to the opposite gender. It doesn’t even scare me really anymore. It just makes me so sad. I feel numb towards men. I don’t THINK it used to be like this. I used to have crushes on guys, never a girl. and i loved that feeling. Now it’s all gone. Please. If anyone is out there with this. Please let me know I’m not alone. Please
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