I was going through my old account (I had when I was 12-13) I noticed I was following this little kid that was like trying to flex, and my brain keeps saying weird things, I feel so uncomfortable rn, I keep yelling at it to shut up, pls help guys
It sounds like you’re experiencing a lot of internal turmoil right now. Deep down, you know these thoughts aren’t true; they’re just thoughts produced by your OCD mind. Because you react to them, your mind thinks they’re a threat. You need to practice not engaging with your mind and learn not to take them seriously. Also, you were so young (12-13) that it’s normal you followed some kids at that time. You saw them as your peers, and they weren’t kids anymore for your age,at least you didn't see them as kids. Recognize that it's normal to feel uncomfortable when revisiting old experiences or accounts, especially ones that may trigger certain emotions or memories. Try grounding techniques to bring yourself back to the present. Focus on your breathing or engage in a simple activity, like counting objects in the room or describing your surroundings. When intrusive thoughts arise, instead of yelling at them, gently redirect your focus. Engage in a hobby, listen to music, or talk to a friend to help shift your mindset. If looking at that account is making you uncomfortable, give yourself permission to step away from it. It’s okay to curate what you engage with online. Write down your thoughts and feelings. This can help you process what you’re going through and may reduce the intensity of your discomfort. Be kind to yourself. Remember that everyone has moments of discomfort and self-doubt,it’s part of being human.
I get how you feel. I’ve looked back at old accounts I had at 10-13 and it makes me recoil and think why did I act like that or do those things or think that was ok. It’s genuinely so triggering looking back into the past so I highly suggest not doing it cus it will make you spiral 😭
i was in target and saw this kid who looked like my nephew and i didn’t a double take because i thought it was him i was gonna go say hi to him. it wasn’t him, but then my OCD intrusive thoughts popped in and made me want to throw up and run away and hide. it popped in my brain and i was immediately disgusted with myself. i wouldn’t ever do anything to harm a child. WHY IS MY BRAIN LIKE THIS I JUST NEED A BREAK.
I shouldn’t have done this (trigger trigger trigger!!) So about a month ago..maybe I watched this video (as a compulsion to prove to myself) The video was called “interview with a p3d0” And basically it was what it says, I watched or more like listened to half of it…after I was disgusted by the person, but now all I can think of is every little thing I do, I feel as if tho I’m monitoring every thought/moment and feeling I have it’s torturous and I hate it..I feel disgusting, the person in the video has empathy and sympathy and had those feelings yk, I can’t explain it you’d have to watch the video yourself but please don’t it will ruin your journey…I feel more hopeless then before, my OCD is telling me so many things trying to convince me things that Ik aren’t true, I’m just really scared I don’t want to be that person I want to be a good cousin and person to my family, I’m sick of my head and myself, I’m so tired that sometimes I can’t even think straight, my head is always in pain and idek how to help myself..compulsions have been becoming more and more exhausting… I need advice or even someone to relate to, I understand I shouldn’t have done what I did but idk how to forget it.. I had made this post already but when someone replied I couldn’t see it for some reason so I’m uploading it again
I told a few people on social media about my OCD, including POCD and how distressing it is. But everyone went quiet, then a few hours later I posted that I don’t support pedophilia at all neither do I justify it or am a pedo. Then someone replied with: “I think someone might take it bc u have such an obsessive fear of it u might have actual p3 do philic tendencies” I can’t do this anymore, I’m terrified to spiral again like a few months ago but I’m on the brink of doing it again. I’m shaking and stressing tf out I hate this so so so so so much
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