Sexual fantasies talk, tmi warning. I can’t stop feeling that there is some monster inside me which is going to destroy my life. I know for a fact now that I never was and in all probability never will be attracted to another woman in reality. I even stopped having these awful groinal responses/intrusive thoughts and now I can be around women, yay! However I am terrified of my sexual fantasies. I’ve kind of suppressed them for a long time. When Im having sex, I concentrate on my partner and that is okay, but sometimes I slip from reality to some ‘harmless’ fantasies and then to taboo ones about other women. I’m afraid that if I allow myself to give in to those fantasies they would be strictly homosexual and that would definitely mean something. Sometimes it’s so bad that I’m trying to force the fantasy and then I feel grossed out. Does anyone else have it?