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You really think your the only one who has HOCD? Nooo HOCD is more common than you think
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I meant I feel alone because I’m single, she was there for me and now I feel alone.
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@Mod22 I say work on yourself first and build a high self esteem, and you’ll attract the right people
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@GummyDrop Yeah it was my fault that we broke up but yeah I get you I just want to work on myself it’s my final year next year I just want to focus on that
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@Mod22 I believe in you it’s hard going through with HOCD but remember if you have a bad day come to this app and I’ll try to help you
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@GummyDrop Thank you I appreciate it I feel like we just have to be more practical now feeling sorry for ourselves won’t change anything we need to start bettering ourselves by erp and cbt I just want to be better I’m tired of all of this but talking also helps too I appreciate the support we give each other
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@Mod22 Yeah, since your active now can you help me with something cause you also have HOCD
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@GummyDrop What can I help you with
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@Mod22 Do you have HOCD as in Harm ocd?
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@GummyDrop Homosexual ocd it’s really bad I had health Ocd before and it wasn’t as bad as this one my ocd switched themes
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@Mod22 Yeah homosexuality ocd is what I have it’s sucksss and it hard to be genuine happy
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@GummyDrop Yes it is and sometimes it feels real well what I can try to assist with is that you shouldn’t give into compulsions I don’t give in like 90% of the time although I have what we call the fake horny feeling i just pretend like it doesn’t exist but at the same time the mere fact that I don’t give into compulsions also makes me angry because I feel like I’m accepting that I’m what my ocd says I am but I don’t follow up on it too much I just have a problem of thoughts and over analyzing my surroundings ever since I had ocd I notice gays a lot and before this I didn’t even care
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@Mod22 Would you mind helping me with a problem in my HOCD? One day I tested myself if I would be jealous if a girl likes another girl, to see if I was a lesbian. My reaction was that I didn’t want to date that girl but I didn’t want people around her. People told me that I’m being protective and it’s part of HOCD. Have you felt like this, rarely anyone feels like this I’m so dumb for thinking like this
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@GummyDrop I’ve never experienced that I mainly just don’t want to be around anyone I’ve been doing a bit better one thing I can tell you is that hocd latches on to anything and everything just don’t follow up on everything your mind says just shrug it off please you are going to make things hard for yourself if you follow up on every thought
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@GummyDrop And trust me shrugging these thoughts off will help you in the long run I promise you, I had so many ocd thoughts and I thank myself everytime I don’t give into them
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@Mod22 Yeah at first I needed an answer to why I’m being so protective and I was worry that if I was jealous I would be gay
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@GummyDrop Don’t give into compulsions, anxiety kills me everytime I have to read messages though I’m scared to be triggered but also it helps because it serves as exposure
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@Mod22 I don’t want to date that girl, when shes near another girl , I’m worried that I might be jealous and then later I get sad to why I think like this. Does this sound HOCD to you?
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@GummyDrop It is it latches on to many things just relax if you weren’t like this before ocd then it’s ocd try to do something positive like exercising eating healthier etc I watch a lot of movies lately and I’m enjoying it it’s 3AM this side and I’ve been consumed by all of these movies movies make it better and YouTube too just try to find something to take your mind off things for a bit
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@Mod22 Someone told me that I’m just being protective
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@GummyDrop It’s ocd there’s nothing more to it please just Find something that will help you take the edge off for me it’s movies and YouTube and music Find something that Will make you happier because dwelling on this thought is going to make you crazy please I’ve been there
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@Mod22 What makes you think this is ocd and that I’m not actually gay
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@GummyDrop Because you didn’t have these thoughts before and that these thoughts aren’t pleasurable to you if you were gay you’d love these thoughts and only fear coming out. You really need to calm down and find new ways to deal with this
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@Mod22 Thanks there’s a therapy here but I’m not sure if u have to pay
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@GummyDrop It’s free I tried it but I need a therapist
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I’m so sorry you’re going through all this right now. I would say remember being kind and compassionate to yourself, because you absolutely deserve it especially in such a hard time. Maybe concentrate on those parts of your life that don’t feel like a shipwreck right now, like family or work or hobby or whatever?
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It’s so hard to focus when you live in the same building with your ex I will not stand seeing her with someone else she slept over yesterday because I was not feeling well and then said we should set boundaries I feel better when she’s around and now that she said this I have no hope. I’ll try to focus and do other things. My anxiety is high af right now
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@Mod22 Oh man I can only imagine how hard it is right now. Do you have anyone to hang on with? Some friends or family who can stay a couple of days with you? Maybe you can go on a small trip? Anything to get some space without this shit
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@scaredbunny I can’t go home because it’s expensive to go home. I can’t have friends over too because I live in a dorm I live in a totally different province or state if you from USA they speak a different language here and so nah I don’t have any family but being in my room helps sometimes I’m only anxious when I leave the room
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@Mod22 Oh god, its some top tier shit... Well then all’s left is Skype, binge studying and getting exercise. I was going through a terrible break up when I was in Uni, and I too lived in a dorm, so I made friends with people I didn’t particularly like, just to not be alone all the time, and I think it helped.
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@scaredbunny I just hope I make friends and change my life for the better I’m just glad I don’t give into compulsions 90% of the time what’s left is the thoughts
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I keep having this weird feeling none stop that it’s most likely not HOCD and most my feelings. Like I’ve suffered none stop distress and unwanted thoughts the past few days. But those thoughts after a bit just feel weird not the kind of discomfort but are just their and stale. When I look at a guy I don’t feel anything but my thoughts sometimes compliment his looks or personality which makes me doubt my sexuality. I’ve never felt this weirded out. Because I’ve always been straight and still believe I am but I’ve never even had an emotional connection to someone of the opposite gender in fact. My view of the female body has been ruined with none stop pornography addictions. I don’t believe I’m gay but I feel like it may just be denial instead of HOCD but all my symptoms are literally HOCD. I don’t hate the idea of gay people but I can’t imagine or see my heart going off to like someone of the same sex. I haven’t really had any meaningful real life friends besides online but that also ended a few months ago. My only friend ever online that was my friend for the longest of time was a queer but I never really cared about what he liked. Like yes at some point I did try to challenge him with his own feelings but that didn’t last long I just accepted what he liked and moved on. I’ve never even touched let alone held a long conversation with a female. I’ve always been timid and shy around them but I can just say that towards male as well. The gay feelings feel so real. The thoughts feel a bit natural to me but I don’t want this. But I hate how I can’t just move on and be myself and love women when those thoughts demand attention and an answer. It won’t quit it. If I try to do a compulsion it calms down but it quickly becomes a problem again. I’m lonely I don’t have any friends or past relationships I can even think of helping me with the emotions. I still believe I’m straight and I just can’t see myself with a guy. It just doesn’t feel right for me despite my lack of experiences. I just wanna go back to how I was happy and loving girls and not having to question if it was a real feeling or just my natural timid nature. Everytime I think these distressing thoughts I always just wanna sit down and close my eyes and sleep. Because that’s where I can have peace of self. It sucks but I’m so exhausted of having to deal with emotional distress and I can’t even focus on my job as much. I want to meet new people discover my love for women again but I’m scared in the process I may discover I may be gay. Because deep down I know I wouldn’t ever be happy with myself if my greatest fears where confirmed. My dream of always being a father with a loving women and kids would be torn away by something I never asked for. Yes I’m religious, yes I come from a place that homosexuals are usually seen in a bad light. I just hate feeling this emotion that I may not be what I thought and having my dreams torn apart maybe true. I’ve read MUTIPLE articles about HOCD and seen MUTIPLE videos. I’ve come to the realization that I most likely have it. But it’s still hard when the feelings of maybe being gay maybe true you know? I hope I get better I hope I don’t suffer. I just wanna be happy with myself and loving females and I don’t wanna hate myself for feeling an emotion that never occurred to me more then a few times.
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I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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I’m like 90% sure I’m just bi, more romantically inclined to men, mainly my bf who I wanna marry. But now my brain is like “if you lean into liking women or keep circling and circling for answers you’ll lose all attraction to men and your bf. You’re practically already a lesbian” I feel so tense and anxious I will admit I am talking to chat gpt out of desperation I’m scared of losing all attraction to him I don’t wanna be thinking about women. I don’t unless I’m really stressed cuz when I’m stressed my ocd can take advantage of that I can usually ground myself when I’m in the city with him but I’m back home for most of the summer and I can’t be physically close to him which usually reminds me that hey this is real this is what I really want in life. Him But then I panic and question I haven’t been here in a while tbh. I’m worried I don’t feel enough. I don’t like magic Mike all that much, I like softer guys. But now the fact I don’t like/get turned on by random men on tv but do women in lingerie really stresses me out and makes me worry I’m truly a lesbian but I’m not. Once I started getting to know my bf and my ex bf’s I really did truly genuinely like them and wanted to make out and everything. Idk can anyone relate to the not liking big buff men All my brain is repeating rn is “when he dies you’ll be able to date a woman, when you break up you’ll only wanna date women” and it’s stressing me out. It’s making me nauseous. I was doing well for about a couple days after I initially left but being at home has been so incredibly draining This might give you a vision of how stressful home is: I’ve been on nexplanon for 7 months ish? Only had very minimal spotting during a stressful school period. Today: fully bleeding, like a usual period. I haven’t had my period since having it put in. I wanna go back to my bf so badly rn. I’m so worried I’m faking or don’t feel enough. I’m learning what a healthy relationship looks like and I’m terrified I’m gonna up and leave him when we’re older cuz I’ll finally figure out that I’m a lesbian or smthn. Idk. Someone pls just help me out a tad
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