HARM OCD please reply ♥️🤞🏼

I am really struggling with harm ocd. ( The fear of hurting others) My ocd is very tough to combat at the minute. I feel like i’m having intrusive thoughts every minute of every single day. Except from when Im distracted. I feel guilty and foul for the thoughts. I have this strong intrusive feeling that feels impulsive, as if i’m about to act on a thought. It almost feels like I want to. But I really don’t and i’m so scared this isn’t normal. I keep thinking. “What if this isn’t OCD” “What if i did that” and it’s really worrying me as it feels relentless and as if I’m about to do it. In my head chest wrists. I feel tired of this. I don’t know much about compulsions etc but i find myself - Asking my bf if he gets intrusive thoughts like me. Asking him if he actually does and asking repeatedly. - I ask him over and over again and check if he definitely does. - I will literally try to fight the thoughts by kind of saying “ as if i’m not that type of person” Then saying everything will be okay to myself. Please can someone tell me if this is normal. Yes I may be looking for reassurance but i need to know if it is, Im scared, i’m crying. Please tell me if you’ve had this feeling of as if you’re about to do it!

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Username: Book lover❤️Book lover❤️

Date posted: 13w ago

2 years ago, I had an intrusive thought about my boyfriend. I completely shut down started having horrible panic attacks. It was me harming him like stabbing him thoughts, I was SO SCARED because it kept repeating and I felt like it was telling me I had to do it like the urge. Truth is, it was OCD tricking me. Only thing I can say don’t overthink about the thought it does NOT mean anything. Sit with it, write about it. Learn to not let it overcome you. Easier said than done! It took me awhile. It scared me so so much I thought I was losing my mind. Sending you love. It does get better!

Username: carol.xxxcarol.xxx

Date posted: 13w ago

@Book lover❤️ Thank you so much for your comment, did it feel like you was about to do it?😢

Username: Book lover❤️Book lover❤️

Date posted: 13w ago

@carol.xxx Yes sometimes it did, what I did is told my boyfriend to leave the room or whatever the thought is specifically on. It can be super overwhelming especially when you are triggered to the max. Sat alone in my room and spoke kind words to myself. At the time it felt like it didn’t do anything but it did help me overtime. You’re not alone!! I thought I was going crazy and almost admitted myself to a hospital. Eventually, I had to slowly let my boyfriend in and deal with the thoughts head on, remind myself these thoughts are not me in the end of the day.

Username: BeardzyBeardzy

Date posted: 13w ago

Hi Carol, What you are experience is completely normal in the OCD world. I myself have had very strong urges that were terrifying towards both my wife and child. Much like Book Lover, I would either leave the room or have them leave the room out of fear. I have gotten to a point now where I challenge the thoughts head on and say “yep, I’m going to do it, let’s do it right now” and then watch as nothing happens because I am still completely in control and know that I would never actually do what OCD is telling me I would do. It takes a while, but you will get there ❤️

Username: Sofie_mmmSofie_mmm

Date posted: 12w ago

Hi, I just wanted to say that you are describing every symptom of ocd especially questioning if u really have ocd, it really helps to not react and ruminate on ur thoughts and it may make u feel worse and less guilty but in the end its the way to recovery, don’t try to reassure your self just be like “ok” to ur thoughts its super hard and it’s not a linear recovery but your not a horrible person, i struggle with this alot and I understand how debilitating it is sending love !!!

Username: KS24

Date posted: 46w ago

Intrusive thoughts/urges - Harm OCD

I’m wondering if anyone could please give me some advice/tips on breaking this cycle? I have had OCD for 12+ years, however I have only recently been officially diagnosed. I’m struggling significantly with harm OCD, involving thoughts/urges of harm towards other people, particularly my loved ones. This is incredibly distressing to me, as I don’t want to harm anyone and it is constantly sending me into severe distress and panic attacks. I understand that I need to lean into the discomfort/accept my thoughts to move forwards, rather than pushing it away as this adds fuel to the fire - but every time I do, I have a panic attack. My mind constantly tells me I have to act on the urge to get relief and that it’s the ‘only way’ out/to feel better.. I’m stuck in this habitual/learnt behaviour cycle, as I’ve always acted on my urges (not involving harming others) for the past 13 years to get temporary relief and to neutralise thoughts - Every time I think that I need to act on the urge or as though I’ll snap and act on it, I feel terrified and scared, then feel very distressed or have a panic attack.

Username: Ariyah

Date posted: 40w ago

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ive had harm type for years. it’s focused around my mom and if i want to hurt her and i spiral and it’s terrifying. sometimes i get scared that im insane and that i don’t actually have ocd, ect. my compulsions are usually going on my phone (what im doing now, i know, im trying) to distract myself or i try to comfort myself almost like reassuring. does anyone else struggle with this? I just need to know im not alone.

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Username: carol.xxx

Date posted: 20w ago

PLS REPLY!xx

What if the harm ocd never ever goes away and i have to live with this FEELING. like even when im not having an intrusive thought i still have this feeling of the thought. Is this normal LIKE I DO NOT WANT TO ACT ON AN intrusive thought AT ALL but im so full of panic because im having intruisve thoughts like “what if i did” “what if i just do it and dont care” “what if i dont care” “what if it doesn’t matter if i were to act out on the thoughts” Is this normal because im so scared because this feeling in my head and chest im just scared. Anyone who relates how long did u have this for / the feeling/ thoughts. Pls help! Im so scared because sometimes it even comes into existential like “Why does it matter if i did that” Please

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