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If you are disgusted by the thought of being attracted to whatever your OCD is conjuring attraction to, then you and your personality are not attracted to it. From what i’ve researched on OCD, your mind may conjure up “situations” to test your biggest fears. There is no winning the test; either way you will not find relief. I suggest you work with a therapist on revealing your worries to confront your OCD and build coping mechanisms that dissipate your anxieties. You are NOT what your OCD is trying to convince you that you are. Your false attraction is built upon fear of being attracted to the subject, so it is contradictory to your morals. You are not a bad person and healing is not avoiding your fears it is confronting them as false. You can do this, your life is valuable and you are worthy of being understood.