Does anyone have sexual harmful taboo intrusive thoughts that are accompanied with an urge. I’ve had them at least three times and then I feel an urge in my hands and I know I’d never do that but it really scares me like why would I have an urge in my hands I wouldn’t ever want to harm my family members in any way or form. Why is there this urge and it’s only happened about twice the first time I broke down after that the second time it popped up with no urge I ignored it the third was earlier bugged me but I’m very calm because I understand I’d never do it or act out on it but why does the urge pop out and is it normal do any of you undergo that sometimes too? Please help need advice on this

agh .. okay .. i’m so so embarrassed to post this, i’m literally crying .. but i need some help and advice. or maybe just a place to vent. i don’t know yet. so .. i was hanging out with three of my cousins today, and a few friends. one of my cousins was driving us around, and it was a pretty long drive, and we all just chatted, had fun, you know, normal teenager shit. but i couldn’t help but shift my focus onto certain things about my cousin driving — “wow, he’s going so fast, he’s so cool,” “i like the way his hands are gripping the wheel. wow his hands. hands hands hands” “his happy trail looks nice” (we went swimming) “i feel jealous of his girlfriend” and all sorts of things. i just feel. so awful. i don’t want these thoughts at all, and i feel just horrible. my ocd mixed with hypersexuality from trauma is just not helping at all, and i just want to get rid of these thoughts. i feel so disgusted with myself, and i’m scared that even though intrusive thoughts are normal, maybe mine are too far and i’m just “unfixable” or “broken.” any advice on what i could do? :( edit: i would like to add that we’re not even blood cousins, since we’re “related” through my step dad, which makes these thoughts worse and makes my head go, “oh, well, it’s okay!!” aghh. so frustrating :(

Does anyone else get intrusive thoughts of same sex oral sex? I’ve been struggling with this repeated intrusive thought for over two years, and everytime I get it it’s like a stab in the chest, I hate it so much if I think about it for too long it makes me feel sick and I’d never want to do it so why does it keep coming back 😔

I genuinely can’t seem to catch a break. I’m looping again. I’m worried because I’m having incestuous thoughts about my boyfriend’s family, which also makes this a POCD-type thought. I’ve been imagining two of his family members in a sexual scenario. Mentally, it feels like I like this thought or that I want to think about it. I keep checking because I’m not disturbed at all, even though I know I shouldn’t check. I tried replacing both people with other people and different scenarios. With those, I clearly rejected it and didn’t like it. But with the original scenario, it still feels like I like it, and I don’t understand why. I want to stop checking, but every time I do, I feel a strong pull to continue. I’m anxious because this is such a bad thought, it doesn’t feel bad but I know that if I shared this out loud it would be not good. It involves people very close to my boyfriend. I’m so stressed that I feel like I’m feeling nothing at the same time. I really don’t know what to do. I just want to know if anyone else has experienced this with taboo themes, when it feels like you “like” the thought mentally.