Does anyone have sexual harmful taboo intrusive thoughts that are accompanied with an urge. I’ve had them at least three times and then I feel an urge in my hands and I know I’d never do that but it really scares me like why would I have an urge in my hands I wouldn’t ever want to harm my family members in any way or form. Why is there this urge and it’s only happened about twice the first time I broke down after that the second time it popped up with no urge I ignored it the third was earlier bugged me but I’m very calm because I understand I’d never do it or act out on it but why does the urge pop out and is it normal do any of you undergo that sometimes too? Please help need advice on this

Harm OCD

Rachel52

Date posted: 5y

ALL THE TIME! Actually urges are a symptom that come with the thought. Why? Well let me tell ya! When you watch porn, you get horny.. right? Even if you’re like ew, not interested, and it was just a pop up, your brain doesn’t know what is happening so when an intrusive thought pops up like that and it’s about your family member, you yourself can be like ew not interested in that crap - where did that come from! And attempt to toss it aside, but of course you get uncomfortable because of the false alarm in your brain and dwell on it, but we can’t control what pops into our head. No one has a clue what’d they’re going to be thinking about in ten minutes so don’t think you want it cause it popped in, your brain just throws things at you sometimes and literally every human has these thoughts but with OCD they get sticky and stay put, the urge though comes from the fact that you thought about a sexual act... doesn’t have boo to do with who it is and doesn’t mean you want that, but you thought of sex. Has nothing to do with them, your body’s natural urge just came along with it as the symptom. Like those funny videos on YouTube of someone dancing close up with long hair looking pretty and you’re like, nice, then they turn around and it’s a dude with a hairy stomach, you thought of sex, so your body is like hey... they realized the topic and was like, HAH! Absolutely not. It does go away though! It’s weird in the meantime and can feel crippling. But Believe me, ERP is a magical tool.

Reptarrox

Date posted: 5y

Facts.

Rachel52

Date posted: 5y

@Reptarrox ? right?

Reptarrox

Date posted: 5y

@Rachel52 Yez ma'am

Reptarrox

Date posted: 5y

Nah you me and probably half the people on the app that don't want to admit it . I have trouble taking my own advice sometimes. So I get pretty low at times but I always feel better at some point. . Makes me appreciate it more when I know I'll be alright

Ella___

Date posted: 5y

Honestly same it’s so hard to listen to your own advice even though youre right due to ocd and the doubt it likes to feed us its like dude can you stop and just listen to me for a second and the ocd is just there like no no you’re wrong

Reptarrox

Date posted: 5y

Yea I just let it sit. I'll watch something nostalgic like a movie or show maybe play a game I did as a kid. But yea. It talks all day, never shuts up. It pretty much forces you to have to believe you aren't bad or on your way to being so. But yea lol. That guy's an ass

Reptarrox

Date posted: 5y

I get that your not alone, it's tough but you have to try to not seek reassurance. Try to let everything come and go. Try not to latch on. I get sometimes it's hard but just try. You have felt better afterwards in the past. Focuz on that. You aren't your thoughts your the one in control. Even if it doesn't feel like it

Reptarrox

Date posted: 5y

Also. You were giving pretty good advice on some other posts. If you want to talk I'm here I get this exact feeling and it sucks

Ella___

Date posted: 5y

You’re right I mean I felt a bit nervous but now I feel better at the end of the day I know I wouldnt harm my family or anyone just gotta let it sti there and it will subside makes me feel better that I’m not alone on this though

Aphid123

Date posted: 25w

Is this even OCD?

Hey so a couple months ago (7-8) I remember being upset at my family member. Like she was talking too much while I was annoyed and remember wanting her to be quiet. I got an intrusive thought like a really bad image of doing something really bad to her, and my hand twitched to the side a little? Like it felt like I was about to?! And I remembered thinking "if I do this, I'll get in trouble". I got up and left to the bathroom and felt horrified! I was thinking "did I want to act out? Did the only reason I didn't act out was because of getting in trouble? If there was no consequences, would have I done it?! Does this mean this whole time I've been using OCD as an excuse?" I remember I couldn't sleep for 3 nights because of how bad the anxiety was, I was crying and I felt very guilty like I should turn myself in to a mental hospital. I couldn't eat for many days or be near her because of that thought and twitch I had! I'm worried it was an impulse or I actually wanted to hurt her. And even to this day I still ruminanate about this. Like last night I couldn't sleep well I kept waking up every two hours and asking myself "am I capable?" I couldn't eat last night. Sometimes I move on from it like I forget that happened but when I remember, I feel distressed about it! I don't want to be an evil person or do bad actions towards anyone! I'm even scared to be angry because of this because I'm scared I have more "chance" of acting out due to anger. Like was it an impulse and I held back? Is this even OCD? Please help, I'm really scared!

Anonymousssssss

Date posted: 24w

Help

I deal pretty heavily with this. The last couple days, I’ve had what I think are urges. Something pops into my head intrusively and then what stems from that is me WANTING to just indulge in it even though it’s gross. I get worried bc I used to struggle w thoughts about my dad for a long time until eventually I just purposely thought of him while self pleasuring and got off to it. While that’s something I did, it is NOT me. It all stemmed from my mental health declining a couple years back, I was never this way before. So I get worried that it almost happened or might happen with my pocd cuz I could never live with myself if it did.

Andi 🤓☝️

Date posted: 21w

What is this?

Recently ive been getting very scared to even be angry bc of the horrible thoughts I have and it feels even more real when I'm angry or even annoyed. Rn I was not even super annoyed at my neice but I felt a twinge of annoyance since she went up to my face and was yelling at me while I was resting on the bed and I got this image of doing something bad to her and I felt my hand twitch very little. I got nervous and felt relieved when her dad told her to stop screaming for no reason. I've been hyperfocusing on my bodily reactions (mainly my hands or how I'm feeling like did I just enjoy that? Was I considering???) And I've noticed the small twitches whenever I'm mad or annoyed and it's scaring me so bad! Like do I want to act out? Am I holding back??? I used to not even twitch at all when mad and I felt 100% sure I'll never act out but now it feels like I don't know bc what do these twitches mean?, I do know I don't want to ever act out but it's so scary. Recently whenever I feel angry once the argument is over I cry really bad after I'm alone and I pray so i never want or act out. And when the annoyance passes I also feel so guilty and want to stay away. Im scared these are real urges and i research for many many hours to make sure they arent urges or impulses and i also tend to ask chatgpt or here if the anxiety gets so bad 😕

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