- Date posted
- 43w
POCD
Trying to accept that these thoughts are there is extremely difficult as essentially it feels like agreeing with them even though I don’t. I can recognise that I am going through ocd and I do feel lucky in the sense I know it’s not just me and it is a disorder but actually it just doesn’t stop that doubting thought worm. I am in the process of seeking help and holding onto the hope that it can get better but I can’t help but notice when I have a happy moment when socialising I reflect and think wow I can actually enjoy myself regardless of this, my brain is then immediately taken hostage and is tells me u can’t be happy because remember this awful thought you have and immediately pulls me down, I try not to let it effect me but it is so depressing it just takes everything joyful away from me and manipulates it to be ruined. I’m so sick tired of it, or even a past memory it just steals it and reminds me I can’t enjoy life in the same way anymore. will this gloom ever reside?