- Date posted
- 46w
Why???
Why has all my other OCD subtypes gone away but this one (SOOCD) stays around 24/7!? Does that mean that’s who I actually am?
Why has all my other OCD subtypes gone away but this one (SOOCD) stays around 24/7!? Does that mean that’s who I actually am?
It’s my only theme and that alone stresses me out. I’ve had fleeting moments of thoughts related to POCD that give me a lot of stress, but SOOCD has stuck the most consistently, which makes me think it’s real. It’s to the point now where imagining a future with a man is so hard, and I hate it.
This is exactly how I feel. I feel like I actually don’t have any other themes and I’m just bisexual, and if I accept I’m bisexual I’ll eventually accept being a lesbian.
That's how I feel. March of next year will be 2 years. But I didn't just randomly get the thoughts, I watched porn and had fantasies that didn't align with how I identify. Trust me though, I get it.
@2022💍 Mine is 10 years 😭
SAME GIRL
Same honestly like this doesn't just go, and the groinal it's the worst, allthough I remenber saying yesterday that the groinal wasn't a big deal and that false atraction was the worse lol
It’s because you care about it so much that you constantly are obsessing over SOCD, so it sticks around. You cannot interact with OCD in any way, or else you risk it becoming your main theme. ERP and mindfulness are key to getting better. Are you seeing a specialist?
It's hard not to care. Especially when it wasn't only just " thoughts" for some of us.
@Nica I was but then she let me go because she said I had other issues that I needed to take care of before I see an OCD specialist
I have just recently realized that I had SO OCD. This began whenever I was watching porn and had an intrusive thought about the guy in the porn. It was more minor at first, it was a majority of what I was thinking about throughout the day but it didn’t feel as distressing at first. If I had downtime to think about it, it would affect me but if I was just going about my day I wouldn’t notice it. I began going through the compulsions of checking myself. This lasted for a while until another obsession occurred. Then it seemed as if my SO OCD took a step back. I would have flare ups but they would seem to pass. Recently, I had a very bad night of constant compulsions and looking at pictures and imagining things to check myself. After that night it was very distressing, it affected me to the point where people around me began to notice and ask me if I was okay. One of the big reasons I was so upset was my girlfriend, we have been together for over 3 years and I want to spend the rest of my life with her. I was thinking “Oh my god, if I am gay I can never be with her.” I would sit and cry about it thinking I would lose her and that might life would change because I was gay. I finally had enough and talked to her and my parents. We did some research and I was so shocked to find out that I had a form of OCD, it was like a weight being lifted off my shoulders just knowing that other people have been where I am and that I’m not gay. However, I may have naively expected the compulsions and obsessive thoughts to go away now that I knew I had an actual problem. But I found that the compulsions and thoughts were still there and I was going to put some effort into getting better. I have researched and now know what to do when experiencing intrusive thoughts, yet I still have been performing the compulsions which is just feeding into the OCD. I find myself having intrusive thoughts and then start performing compulsions to see if they are true. What really bothers me is when I have an intrusive thought that tells me that I do like something. But when I think about it I have no desire to pursue those thoughts. However when I feed into the compulsions they just seem to feed into each other. It is like my OCD ignores all the things that I know I like and goes straight to panic mode. I am also trying to do ERP and am going to start doing my best to get better. Does anyone have any tips for not performing the compulsions no matter how anxious you are feeling and no matter how real the intrusive thoughts seem to feel?
Hoping someone can answer this question 🙏 I have social anxiety so when I go out crowded places I have thoughts more like I feel people would be judging me etc but these thoughts don’t bother me so much & there not usually loud like my suicidal intrusive thoughts are. Now the only thing that concerns me is why are my s thoughts so loud and the most convincing when I could have a thought about anything else and I just forget it and move on? But with my s thoughts I get stuck on them and try to figure out what they mean , Is this a sign of OCD?
Why is it that you beat one OCD think, but another OCD thing comes up related to it, but the same theme?
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