does anyone else use the fact that they dont like their thoughts as a confirmation/compulsion, and or when you go through something stressful with little to no compulsions take it as a sign they actually like it? is this apart of usual rumination or am I expirencing something different? and how do you deal with it?
Doubting is a huge part of OCD, that's why it's also called the doubting disease. When you get intrusive thoughts, you doubt if they really are OCD thoughts, but think they are thoughts you want to have. When you get used to them and their presence doesn't scare you as much anymore, you doubt, that it is habituation, but think it's you actually liking them. To me it always seems, that going by the rules of OCD is a lose-lose situation for me. When I do compulsions it's never good enough to get rid of the doubt. When I don't do compulsions I used to feel like I don't care and that I am a bad person. Doing ERP helped me a lot and often when OCD pops up now, I role my eyes, like OCD is an annoying fly.
I feel the same way, everyday. Its like perfect some day and than it punches back making me crazy bealiving in it
this is common and its a trick OCD plays. the goal of OCD is to stop the compulsions, not the thoughts, because the thoughts arent important, only the negative way we respond to them is. If you go through something stressful with no compulsions, that's a WIN and should be taken as a sign that you are aging ground against your OCD. DO NOT let OCD trick you into thinking a LACK of a fear response is a BAD thing. it sounds like you're moving in the right direction, don't get sidetracked. watch this video on tips to stay successful with OCD. This guy is really helpful. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fPtjx2ysxa8&t=517s
@TexasOCD41 The goal of ERP is to stop the compulsions. ;)
@Zoë_84 - Thank you, i meant to say the goal of treating OCD, my bad, words no like me lol
Guys, whenever u refrain from performing mental compulsions like refusing to analyse or argue wuth those intrusive thoughts, do u feel like ure denying something important or feel something bad at the back of ur head?
I keep finding myself almost automatically checking or trying to disprove my intrusive thoughts before I even get chance to agree or ignore them. Does anyone have an advice on this?
So if as soon as you think of something you get an anxiety feeling in your chest but it’s not an unbearable feeling or feeling of great distress/angst but as soon as I think of that thought I get this anxious feeling in my chest does that mean I don’t like the thought but have gotten use to it so the anxiety isn’t really bad? Like can you get anxiety but but be so use to it that it doesn’t alarm you or come off really strong that you hate the anxious feeling? Because many times throughout the day I have a thought and I get this ‘mild anxious feeling’ but it kinda hits as soon as I ruminate …does that mean I don’t like the thoughts? I have been believing I’m bad and when I tested myself on an intrusive thought (it’s been bothering me a lot it’s about smothering someone😞) it felt so vivid but felt like ‘I liked the feeling of doing that when I imagined it’ I have been obsessing over it thinking I’m actually bad now and have sick desires, but the fact that as soon as I have the thought I get like an instant mild anxiousness in my chest does that mean I am uncomfortable/hate the thoughts but I have gotten use to them so my emotional response isn’t flaring up like it use to? Also why does it feel like I’m desperate to think about these thoughts but at the same time don’t want to think about them I don’t know what to do
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