Being perceived

I have no idea if thats my autism or ocd but I know that this isnt normal Im obsessed with aesthetics, everything has several aesthetics that can be connected to them. And by everything I mean everything. Everything you do. Im also scared of everyone who has different aesthetic or is sligthly different from me. I already uninstalled tiktok, I stopped using instagram and youtube because Im so scared of people being different from me, It makes me spiral. Also Im extremally anxious about people perceiving me or things I like in different way than I want. It gives me several looping and intrusive thoughts

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Kellymerellie

Date posted: 43w

I don't know much about autism, but I know a good deal about OCD. TRIGGER WARNING FOR THIS NEXT PART Everyone is different from each other. No one person is 100% alike. The sad thing about this is that you will never know how a person perceives you unless you ask. But, there is no need to do that. The only one that you should worry about the opinions of, is you. Don't let OCD bring you down. You are not your thoughts and you are not a bad person. Just from what I read, you are full of love. You want to be loved. You want to be with people, you are just worried something bad may happen if they are different, but it probably won't. I have may friends who are different from me and that's ok. We care for each other. It's actually beneficial to have people around you that are different, because they can you a new perspective on life. They can point out things maybe you would've missed. For example, I am a huge kpop fan, even though where I am from, it's not I heard of but it's still more uncommon then not. So, of course, I have friends who don't really care about that stuff, but they watch it with me, because they know it makes me happy and they do kind of like it, because they figure if I must watch, I might as well try to enjoy myself. I told them that I can do other things too so that we all can be happy together and we do. We find common ground. If something happens in the kpop world and I get upset about it, I tell them how I feel and they comfort me and they give me a non kpop fan perspective on the matter. It's actually very helpful at times. I understand the fear of wanting to be accepted and liked for who I am, but you don't need people to be 100% like you to have those things. Just be yourself and if people accept you have you are and make an effort to see you smile then they are worth keeping around. Sometimes the best friends you make are the one you didn't see coming. I hope this helps. Please come talk to the community or your therapist if you ever need to.

BlueberryPan...

Date posted: 43w

I would venture to say that having a fear of people being different from you to the point of deleting social media would lean more toward OCD. However, I would say that the uncomfortable feeling of being perceived is related to autism. EX: you’re walking up to a group of people and you suddenly realize they’re all looking at you and/or a person comments on a task you’re in the process of completing both lead to you feeling very noticeable perceived and uncomfortable. Being misunderstood or misinterpreted and possibly having what you’re doing be confused for ‘the wrong thing’ that’s unrelated to what your actual hobby or interests are sound a lot like autism to me. Especially if ultimately you basically want the absolute truth of what you’re doing to be understood for what it is and people to not misjudge your character based upon inaccurate information that isn’t truly a direct reflection of you and what your intentions are behind it. Lastly, I am no doctor yet I hope this could be of some benefit. I recognize I could have easily misinterpreted what you wrote and if I did so I am sorry about that and I feel no offense to hear greater clarity. Well Wishes :)

Calxferre

Date posted: 43w

I also have autism and OCD, and they tend to overlap a lot for me. To me, it sounds like a bit of an autistic thought (obsession with aesthetics) turned into an OCD obsession. That has happened to me in the past where my special interest turned into an obsession out of nowhere. That is my thoughts, just based on my own experiences.

s0ck_s

Date posted: 19w

I'm freaking out way too much over this

About two hours ago I saw a tiktok of someone who was about level 2 support level for their autism and isnt able to go to school because of it among other things, and ive been freaking out ever since i frequently obsess over mental illnesses or physical illnesses and thinking I have them but one im actually pretty sure of me having is autism but seeing things like that makes me think that im wrong, that my family members are right with saying im just special because i feel like i do not struggle enough, if that makes sense, my friends believe that it could be a possibility, but im not sure, i dont know how to calm myself, no one is responding to me right now and everyone is busy im just struggling

SunnyAnon

Date posted: 19w

ocd + interests + online discussions

i’ve been having this theme pop up recently where if I see people either criticize or be a hater and spread misinformation or seeing old controversies about my current interests/hyper-fixations i find myself having a crazy anxiety attack about if it’s “morally okay” to be interested in my interests anymore. i feel really singled out and like im doing something wrong because im watching a youtuber or listening to a specific musical group. in all of these specific situations the people involved have talked about the situations and have changed accordingly but seeing it makes me feel like i shouldn’t be allowed to like my favorite things. to be clear none of these things are dramatically evil or bad. it’s either misinformation/uneducated people influencing someone opinion and then they learn and change. it just makes me feel like im not allowed to like my favorite things anymore because of people criticizing it??? if that makes sense??? also this is a little off topic but also not really because i’m 99.99% sure im autistic because of MANY things but with this specifically i have very strong interests and i feel very deep feelings about them and any and all criticism or hateful comments towards my favorite things trigger me deeply and make my ocd act up and make me feel uncomfortable and uncertain and anxious and it causes physical discomfort to me. i really don’t know how to calm myself down about this specific theme it’s brand new and makes me feel really anxious. not trying to look for reassurance but does anyone else understand what i mean??? does anyone have any advice on how to not give into the negative comments??? any suggestions on how to ease this specific anxiety???

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Ms.shelovesf...

Date posted: 12w

OCD + autism combo

I have experienced every theme that can be added to post but I’m currently experiencing those. So I am on the spectrum and I happen to have a high sensory profile and it definitely gives the ocd more to latch unto. I would see a pretty female with makeup done and it eatssss and I would notice the facial symmetry + how her features compliment each other and my ocd would be like why did you notice she is pretty, BECAUSE I HAVE EYES😭! I can’t be the only neurodivergent person that notices details and how attractive people are intensely? I do not even care about orientation but I know for sure if I was into women, it won’t just start plaguing me one evening Im my head shouting “you are gay” like man Im a female at least say you are a lesbian 😭😂😂😂😂. How can I genuinely have no interest and get outrightly repulsed by females sexually and romantically. It feels like I am being forced to be something im not. I tried accepting i am lesbian but I experienced more anxiety and could not sleep till I accepted i am still straight and it is ocd playing with me(ocd leave me alone, I don’t even enjoy playing with you) I accepted i am a lesbian like ocd said I should but why do I still love my ex and hope I marry him😭 + I couldn’t bring myself to be interested in females. OCD leave me alone because I don’t enjoy this game again! I’m not homophobic at all but denouncing Im straight doesn’t feel like home and I still find myself yearning for only men

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