Ive been feeling Better lately but today I was watching a TV show and there was this masc woman and I kinda wanted to see if I was attracted to her, like I even put the glasses on to see Better her face and I now i'm spiraling lol. Idk why when there Is a really masculine woman I do this. Maybe I do really like women who look like men. Why they confuse me so much? I must be a lesbian.
Those ones get me too. I've seen them in porn so it scares me more.
This sounds like overanalizing something
maybe, but still i don't know why they trigger me so much.
@Camille67 Well because you think it means something, imagine there are cookies you like and one day you see a can of this cookies, but you opened it and it was niddles, You wouldnt worry, oh this means I was into niddles all along, you would just go, okay my bad, and move on
Does it make you feel uncomfortable?
That question it's gonna haunt back, cause she's gonna doubt it either way, if she doesnt already
@Nicola$ Oh... I have thoughts of things I don't want to do and I know it.
@Speckles Yeah and that's okay, but we all don't have the same experiences, sometimes it gets all mess up in one's head, and not only for this theme, but for all of them on general, but with SO OCD and ROCD it gets particularly tricky to ask how someone feels cause the person is constantly seaking feelings to prove the theme wrong
@Nicola$ Thank you Nicolas❤️❤️
@Camille67 No worries, trust me I get it, its so confusing sometimes
@Nicola$ This Is not the First time that this person replies like this and tries to fuel the doubts in this sub so don't even try to explain, they know exactly what they're doing, they have a lot of time to waste probably!
@Nicola$ I get it. It can be so confusing. It's horrible what OCD can do to your brain
@Camille67 I'm sorry....I was not trying to fuel anything. Sorry you took it that way
@Speckles it's okay, no need to fight Camole, I could have been an honest mistake, and don't worry about it too much Speckles, as we did subtypes and OCD in general tend to get trigger easily, just be mindfull
@Speckles Maybe It was Just a coincidence you made the same question under 2 of my posts then ahahah, don't worry! Some people in the past tried to trigger me under some of my posts so I thought you were One of Them, happy to know I was wrong! Have a nice day❤️
@Nicola$ Thanks...I never meant to come off that way.
I was trying not to think abt it and honestly inwas doing a great job until a woman came on my fyp on tiktok and said “if u think women are objectively more attractive u re not straight” and now i’m so anxious and distressed and am scared i might be comphet. When i was little i remember being obsessed with the “i cant remember to forget u” mv so i rewatched it and thought it was sensual but nothing more. Idk. She also said that if u use a fantasy to get arroused around men u might not like them. Idk anything anymore Im so tired
So i started to feel like a lesbian again and that i have to be one. I dont want to be one. I just dont. But being straight feel like a lie now. I question my whole life, my feelings and everything. The biggest indicator of this must be that i will be slowly 21 year old and ive never dated anyone and i dont really find anyone attractive and i dont even know if i truly was attracted to someone and im scared of relationships i might have trauma or have anxious avoidant attachment. Help me. I do feel lost. Really lost. I dont know who am I anymore. I feel like that i must have been gay my whole life now. I feel like an alien. I sometimes feel like 2 people are living inside of me.😞😞😞
I just recently kind of was getting over my Constant spiral of “am I a lesbian or bi?”(im a lesbian) and now I’ve been tackled by “am I trans” even tho I’ve never questioned my gender ever, I love being a woman, and I never thought I’d ever be dealing with this since I’ve always been so sure of being a woman, anybody else?
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