Everything I do is sexual

Ocd makes me think everything I do is sexual. Moving my mouth is some way meaning I’m doing something impropriate. Moving my tongue too. Moving my hand too. It’s give me intrusive thought. For example: if I’m moving my hand then I get intrusive thought (impropriate) that in the thought I also move my hand and then I get the urge to move my hand again to the thought to get rid of her and check. It’s happens all the time with every part of my body. Like if I do some move and I get intrusive thought about me doing sexual with that move to a … and then I have the urge to do this move again to the thought to check and get rid of the thought. This is so much because the urge is so big and I have so many thoughts. I feel alone in this because I haven’t heard that people have this kind of thought. Because all of this urge is hard for me to move normal. Like I cant move my hand/tongue/leg/mouth… in some way because of this. My therapist told me to act normal and if im hyper focused on something and trying not to move it it’s another compulsion. And honestly this are my main thoughts . I barely get thought about 🍇 a child (sometimes i do) but this is the thoughts I get most. How can I stop it? I feel like it’s never going to disappear. Did someone struggled with this in the past?

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OrMsB

Date posted: 42w

I genuinely want to throw up. Like this kinda thoughts came 3 months ago when I was doing better with my ocd a bit . I’m afraid that what if this is a part of ocd that I could never cure. Like what if no one ever had this so it’s not cure able. Like does it really ocd anymore? I’m so confused I hate not being able to move normal like my life are over

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Date posted: 42w

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OrMsB

Date posted: 42w

@Anonymous Thank you very much I appreciate it 🙏 can I ask if the medication help you with the urge to get rid of the thought by doing a compulsion? Or care less about the thought? And also another question is that it’s normal that I want to get rid of the thoughts because I feel not normal? I miss my old life so badly that I haven’t felt happy for 3 months. This thoughts are horrible and every second of the day. I’m sorry if I’m bothering you and sorry for all the questions it’s just that I’m really suffering now

OrMsB

Date posted: 42w

@Anonymous Thank you so much, this helped me. Cause im going to Psychiatrist today hoping she’s going to put me on meds too. Cause I can’t keep suffering even if it’s help a bit it’s still something. I just want to get to a point when I don’t care about the thoughts ,cause right now I can’t do some moves even when they are considered normal cause im afraid I’m doing something sexual because of the thoughts. I just hope it’s get better

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 24w

Some advice? Sexualizing think!

sexualizing the person my ocd is hooked on bothers me a lot! it doesn't matter if I see the picture, live, facial grimaces, movements... and the groin starts instantly... I somehow cope with thoughts, but with those feelings...very difficult? any advice? any similar experience?

Legends123.

Date posted: 23w

Please help

Hello everyone, forgive my bad English since it is not my native language, I have been suffering from OCD for 6 years now. It started with being afraid of harming my loved ones and soon it escalated. All of this leads us here towards sexual obsessions. I was abused many times when I was a child. I don't know if that had any impact on my sexual issues. so everything lead up to a intrusive tought of what would happend if i touch myself with a picture of your parents" and I ended up paying attention to the intrusive tought and i ended up doing what my intrusive tought told me so i said to me "OCD would make me touch myself for everything i loved so what, i would do it before the anxiety attacks" and I end up in a spiral of having touched myself by several photos of my family members, friends and even my own therapist all wanting to prevent future compulsions and anxiety now I only think about taking my life, I never wanted that to happen I am not a monster who has sexual desire towards my loved ones I fell under my own intrusive thought and the only thing I think about now is taking my life life for what I've done

GreenTurtle098

Date posted: 14w

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Okay so In the moment I get intrusive thoughts about children which I hate. I get the gronal responses which I always so many compultions after. My ocd is very bad and I’m showering and changing my bedding around 8 times. Therapists have told me I’m the worse they’ve ever known. That’s how bad my life is atm. I hate this disorder. I want to know if ocd can cause these things as it will help me to fight my compulsions and just except it’s ocd… In the moment the gronal responses are genuinely pleasurable and I struggle to ignore them and stop them, in the moment t I want them even if it was due to a thought of a kid My OCD will tell me I’m aroused I’ll feel aroused then when moving around in my bed it’ll tell me to make my vagina touch my bedding for a feeling while I’m turning over and I purposely do it in the moment… I hate it. After I do so many compilations, it’s not even me it’s like someone else controlling my body When I try to fight my compulsions I think in my mind “I like this anyways” and actually like the thoughts and gronal responses over the children, which then makes me not be able to fight them. For example my ocf was telling me to spray my feet with anti back, but then I tried to fight it and I was thinking to myself “nah l like this one I like this feeling over the kid it’s the real me” like I didn’t even feel stressed from it it’s like I wanted it. Of corse after these I do lots and many compultions Please I just want to know if ocd can do this

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