- Date posted
- 42w
please help
I saw my psychiatrist again today after a month of taking sertraline and risperidone. I wanted to tell him about the sexual thoughts and images and how I am so convinced that I like them (he is also a sexologist) but I chickened. I feel like when he asked if I'm doing okay I lied. I am doing a little bit better (depression symptoms are decreasing) but again , I can't recover from this theme. It's like I discovered something I ignored for years. My mind sexualizes every little girl I see. It's so frustrating because it feels like I enjoy it?? And I don't want to. I feel so anxious and scared all the time. My chest is heavy. It's honestly been feeling like I'm sad the thoughts are true rather than not liking them? Like something suddenly shifted. Makes me think my therapist and my psychiatrist got the wrong diagnosis. My psychiatrist bumped up my dose of sertraline to 150mg. He said it's going to take quite a couple of weeks to reduce OCD symptoms, but I don't even think that's what I have. Today I'm stuck in bed again and I'm losing faith in the meds. This will stay with me forever.