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i want you to know that this is your ocd making you feel like this, none of these things define who you are and these aren’t your thoughts :( i’m so sorry you are going through this love and please please don’t let this thought ever get to you if you are feeling anxiety and distress right now what i do to help me when i’m dealing with these thoughts is to eat sour sweets if you have any or anything sour because it’s known to lower stress levels and anxiety levels and focus on the sour taste instead , you aren’t horrible person , ocd is a bully and will make you lie to yourself

I understand. Sometimes when I look at things I can imagine me grabbing it but I always remind myself what is reality. One thing you can to calm you is name five things you see, four things you hear, and three you can touch or smell (learned this from a therapist). It will ground you. I assure that this just your ocd and not your true wants or desires. If you really wanted to do harm then you would not have distress over it. I hope you feel better soon.

this has been my struggle too. its genuinely the worse feeling because im so scared to lose control. even when i give myself reassurance it’s never enough and creates more of a false narrative:(. i hope it gets better for you❤️‍🩹

I relate to you so much as a person in my 20's. I promise you, you aren't bad and you want the opposite and you want to feel normal I know. How hard it is mentally and physically at times. But getting cold air can ground you if it every gets overwhelming. Do you have a therapist or a psychiatrist or a group of family to help

I completely relate to this. Im currently experiencing thoughts of harming someone I love. It is absolutely the scariest thing, and isnt my morals or who I am as a person. I wish I didnt have these thoughts. Im a good person.