disturbing dream.

i don't know what to do. i had a dream where i think i felt attraction. i remember being anxious the whole time, I remember that i wanted to try to figure it out and i think i discovered that like i was actually attracted. i dont know what to do. i felt conscious enough to determine that. I was also compulsively staring to check for attraction and then it stopped feeling that way at a certain point in the dream i just aelf sabotaged myself and stared at something inappropriate and told myself i was attracted, that felt ocd like. but the girl in the dream i felt like i was actually attracted to her. i cannot tolerate that.

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ivefailed.

Date posted: 41w

im anxious, i feel like shit im skipping dream

ivefailed.

Date posted: 41w

i feel like if i dont address this now im going to forget the details of the dream and have another uncertainty to pile up in my mind

ivefailed.

Date posted: 41w

Like I don't think i felt a se&ual attraction or something like that, I wasn't "instantly" and "inherently" attracted, in this dream I got worried abt that. I'm afraid that I was liking that girl, like crush-like. At a certain point I'm compulsively stared at the exposed legs and it looked explicit, like it felt like they were attractive, I don't know. I didn't try anything to do anything, like I didn't want to do anything or wish for it. But I'm afraid that I was subconsciously attracted to this girl. It felt like I was pulled towards her. I don't know. When I woke up I felt doomed and defeated. It wasn't anything clear, but the fact that I could have been subconsciously attracted towards this girl feels very real. Like that I found her attractive or something like that. I think I had this dream because I slept a lot and because yesterday and today morning I spent a lot of times ruminating abt the obsession. One moment im the dream I remember is that the girl was in the sofa, and I went towards her, not to talk to her, just to look at her and try to understand how i felt abt her, I grabbed potato chips and left I did that because I wanted to know. I don't know. My brain is telling panicked that I was feeling some kind of attraction towards that young girl.

ivefailed.

Date posted: 41w

I don't know if I was really attracted, but in that dream it felt like I could have been, as if I found her attractive or as if I wanted to be with her. I don't remember all the details. I'm trying to remember. Like i know it wasn't a se&ual attraction or inherent attraction something like that, there was no arousal, it just felt like I was interested. I don't like it. I cannot tolerate that possibility being true. Was it because she was a trigger but also pretty and I had mixed feelings, and I felt "interested" because I wanted to figure out if I was attracted or not? I don't know.

ivefailed.

Date posted: 41w

I'm certain abt not feeling se&ual attraction in the dream, but I feel some doubts, like maybe I was interested, maybe I simply liked that girl, maybe it was just an attraction. I don't know.

ivefailed.

Date posted: 41w

I'm pretty sure I didn't feel a physical or se&ual attraction, but I'm afraid that I might have just felt like a simple "attraction", it certaintly felt like in the dream. not even "felt like", that's certain, i don't think i felt certain or maybe I was, i don't remember, "it felt like it could be" but that could be felt very likely and realistic, I think I was worried because I kept doing compulsions, but the secret scary attraction felt real. I wasn't going near that trigger in the dream because I genuinely liked her or something like that, I felt a strange pull and I wanted to know if it was real. I don't remember, maybe it wasn't any of that. Maybe I was genuinely attracted in that dream. I don't remember the face anymore. like do you know the feeling where you're interested in a girl your age, but don't know if you're really attracted, but there is something that pulls you towards her? so there still must be element of attraction in order for you to spark some interest. i don't know.

ocdinglehopper

Date posted: 24w

intrusive feelings

hey, so i’ve had these insane thoughts about like, this dude. and i assumed it’s intrusive feelings, but it also has happened w the fact o think i like girls? but i don’t? like, i get the gronal response, and everything, and like, it sometimes feels like i actually like them, but it always makes me sick? same way w the false attraction guy, and it even started happening w my bsf of like 9 years? and it’ll tell me the most insane things like “maybe u are attracted” “maybe if u got w them the thoughts will stop” someone please help.

Anonymous

Date posted: 14w

Arousal to something you don't like feeling like u did something terrible

Hey guys recently I been facing anxiety because I have a fear that I acted on something I know I didn't do but it feels real because it felt like I had attraction and arousal to a younger photo of a ex gf I feel so weird feel so anxious I need help Idk what to do

ivefailed.

Date posted: 10w

compulsively testing for attraction GONE WRONG

I know I'm not one. But there is one OCD episode that destroyed my life. September 2024 I was obsessing over attraction, and one night I compulsively imagined a sensual seductive scenario and I was shocked that a trigger could emanate the gaze of seduction and sensuality, and I thought that it was proof of attraction, then I think that for a moment that I felt like I was attracted, I think I self sabotaged myself into accepting attraction and I think like it worked. I still don't know if it was genuine attraction. I felt suicidal immediately later and thought about ending my life until I discovered on my notes that it was a "short moment" and I assumed that it was just OCD; but now I don't believe so. I have confused memories, maybe some are fabricated. I have different versions of what happened: 1. The attraction part was simply me perceiveing the objective seduction and sensuality look and instead of feeling distressed i felt that it looked seductive and I got shocked and that was what I thought it was attraction in my memory. 2. I was actually seducted and I'm in denial 3. I felt seduction but I wasnt seducted 4. I felt egosyntonic attraction and I'm in denial 5. It was a fabricated sense of egosyntoncness, it wasn't genuine attraction but a fabrication, it was a "dare" from the brain, a self sabotage hence why I felt suicidal. I asked an expert and she simply told me that what happens inside the OCD Bubble belongs only to OCD and it has no value, it is not real. And while it's true its entirety happened as a compulsion, as a result of testing an obsessional fear and doubt, I don't know if the content of what happened inside is simply not real. Like when I had triggering POCD dreams. I don't know if it's the same thing when I was worrying abt me being attracted to my mother and I compulsively imagined my parent coming to my bed and felt like I could do it, that I wouldn't refuse, like literally felt like it not hypothetically, maybe because it was a twisted version of it? I don't know. I lost my sense of reality a while ago. Different scenarios too happened where I felt like I could say yes or I was tempted over doing something I find immoral, all of them were a direct consequence of a compulsion but I don't know still, seems too easy. I fear that the human brain is complex enough to allow both things to happen, that is neutral enough to allow a grey area that I cannot tolerate.

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