Soocd fear of becoming gay pls help

@icloudyl Theirs still a possibility cuz I saw someone said there fear came true

@ZapposAlt There will always be a possibility and the only way you gonna recover is accepting that. The thing is you being gay is prob alot less hurtful of the mental pain you are going through right now, the thoughts are alot more anxiety enducing that the actual thing will ever be

@icloudyl So your saying this is most likely ocd and not true and also how was your recovery?

@ZapposAlt I'm saying you should accept the uncertainty of it being true or untrue, maybe you are gay maybe you are straight. My recovery with HOCD came from me accepting that maybe I'm not the straightest, I have a girlfriend now but I'm not disgusted at thoughts of having a crush in a boy anymore, I know I don't swing that way but if it happend I'm all for it. Love is love With acceptance you are accepting the chances and living with them.

@icloudyl How long did it take u too recover

@icloudyl It’s just that I have a girlfriend and it sucks not feeling anything but doubt and I feel so bad for her if I am lying to her

@ZapposAlt Hocd was my first main theme so it took pretty long, I got it at 16 and after 3 month I recovered, but it can alot faster About you having a girlfriend. Relationship ocd usually connects with hocd making you feel like you have lost all the feelings for the person, this gets really annoying cause the anxiety makes you feel less loving toward everything so the thought of you losing feelings looks more true. You are not in a mental state to judge that you are not feeling anything towards her. Give it time you are probably 98% anxiety and 2% human right now. After you started doing better then you can make decisions

@icloudyl Thank you so much it’s just been tuff have had this for about a year now haven’t been the same since constant anxiety and the possibility of just being gay makes me sad

@icloudyl Last thing what were some of the exposures you did when you were dealing with this

@icloudyl Like rn I have this doubt that you are gay and your evetully going to find out and it’s just doubt sitting their with me

@ZapposAlt Bro im sorry to reply late. There is literally a earthquake going on here somehow I know it can get really hard. After a point you live in a state of anxiety. Ocd attaches itself to the scariest thoughts to you so it makes sense that possibility of it makes u feel bad Exposure wise. I realized us with severe ocd, we are exposed to scary thoughts like 50 times a day, so I just tried to reply to them with uncertainty of "maybe maybe not" instead of running from it or trying to be like no ofc I'm straight Also doubt. Doubt is the main part of ocd, and its normal to have that thought but its just a thought. Yes it might become true, but it might not It's not worth ruining your life over a thought. You are deep into it and recovery feels impossible. I've been there Bit things will get better. You will gain your life back Even I might find out in 2 years that damn I'm super gay but that doesn't worry me anymore. I'm happy living in my body enough to live in the moment

@icloudyl Thank you I appreciate it a lot hopefully I get my attraction back to girls and get my life back together have a great day

@icloudyl Sorry to reply so late it’s just the possibility of me being gay just scares me cause I don’t want too be but then the doubt comes in and it’s so annoying.