Anyone here who’s had a lesbian fantasy and enjoyed it before HOCD? I never had one but I’m just curious.

Yup, idk if it’s just me but straight porn doesn’t really doesnt for me, it’d be rare. But Its mainly be lesbian and that scares me.

I know people test themselves with that but I can’t cause I know I’ll get anxiety and regret it so I never got near thar

@advice? I’ve been told several times that a lot of straight women tend to prefer lesbian porn because it’s focused on pleasuring the female. Straight porn is mainly made to please straight men.

Uh same lol

Haha, forgive me for thinking it’s a little cute and laughing. ?

@advice? I’m going to ask a very personal question but ofc you don’t need to answer. I’m only asking because it worries me that it means I don’t like penis or something. Do you like it better when the penis has the foreskin or without?

@advice? Can you answer my question? I have hocd and I only like d*cks cause ima girl and don’t wanna be gay. Cause I was one day like if I liked a little boys d*ck, it means I’m not gay, and I was like, I’m fine with it as long as it’s a dick and it means I’m not gay. Cause as long as I’m not gay I’m good. But now I heard that term pics and I’m scared I’ve might be a pedofile, I don’t want anything to do with a little kid

@GummyDrop I’m sorry what question are you referring to? But yet again can I know your age? You sound pretty young.

Same??? I would much perfer this topic of discussion over what's going on in my head right now

@advice? I’m 15

@advice? I have hocd and if I liked a little boys dick does that mean I’m a pedo? Cause as Long as I’m not gay I’m good. But I don’t wanna become a pedo

@GummyDrop I don’t think that makes you a pedo

Yeah, geez my thoughts worry me.

@advice? Same I hate myself I just wanna be happy and move one with my life

@advice? It’s that anxious worrying response we need to get rid of. These are just thoughts. Thoughts that truly require worry are different, like making sure we’re safe, whether we might fail an exam or miss a deadline!

@ejgh Yes exactly! I find it so strange how ocd makes us worry about certain things and latch onto them.

@advice? Yeah. Thats just the issue. I think its probably that we have more anxiety than most people, and something genetic or accidental causes our brain to try to deal with the anxiety through these irrational means. And unless someone with just normal anxiety we get this repetitive anxiety cause our way of ”dealing” with it just eventually makes it grow.

@ejgh Unlike* sorry

Even that thought gives me some anxiety when I never thought I was anything but straight lol my OCD goes “well if you’re just 10% gay, then you’re bi” lol

I was also a victim of child on child sexual abuse. I wonder all of the time if it contributed to this in any way.

@hateocd123 I think probably it did create tension around the topic

Yeah I rarely even had fantasies. If I did they were super rare, but I would have like romantic fantasies. But yeah I never had a lesbian fantasy.

If you get aroused by heterosexual porn is that gay cause you see someone from the same sex

@GummyDrop No, can I ask how old you are?

Another thing that sucks for me is that anxiety plays into my arousal and makes me more aroused so I could think of any taboo situation that makes me anxious and get aroused. I could think of a family member and get scared that I'm aroused and actually get aroused because I'm scared. It's called misattribution of arousal. I literally mistake fear for more arousal.

@hateocd123 Yes! I’m aroused all day, it’s ridiculous

@amazinggirl15 SAMEEE

I also miss penis, hocd has done a number on me

@amazinggirl15 Has anyone also came out while having hocd but didn’t know what the name was?

Yeah I’m sure that’s the difference, but god me too, I really enjoy sex with my boyfriend. Sorry if I’m tmi but the penis feels great lol.

@advice? I have a question. Has HOCD affected your sexlife with you bf?I get so anxious during times of intimacy with mine. It's killed my libido because I keep thinking about a story I read(I won't share the story to avoid triggering anyone) and it's making me think that I don't like dick anymore ??

@NocturnalGyal In the beginning yes?, I just wasn’t so much in the mood you know. I didn’t feel like doing much, and when anxiety was really bad for me, and we’d do anything sexual I was just scared and not really enjoying myself.

@advice? Omg yes!! Okay! Cause I legit was getting sexual with my bf and I couldn't enjoy it because I just kept overthinking and I actually started to cry ?? omg thank you for sharing. Now I don't feel so crazy

@NocturnalGyal Ofc, it’s pretty common with Rocd, Hocd and maybe even POCD.

Sure

@amazinggirl15 I'm really sorry this is so tmi but sex kinda felt like nothing for a long time. I love it for the intamacy and closeness. I started having sex like 5 months ago and I was only able to O during penetration for the first time like 4 weeks ago. Theres no outside stimulation during Missionary and inside doesn't really feel super pleasurable without clitoral stimulation. If I don't feel anything in that position does that mean I'm gay? Other positions work fine, but I'm afraid that since that's the "normal" one that means I'm gay. I'm so sorry for asking this.

@hateocd123 Every woman is different. Don’t overthink it we all like different things. For me I feel the most pleasure in the doggy position