Idk
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anonempathanonempath
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yep, HOCD makes you see the world through a distorted perspective. in this case, being hyper focused on girls.
GummyDropGummyDrop
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Yes and I’m not even excited when I see a boy
anonempathanonempath
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@GummyDrop mhm and if i am, my brain tells me that i’m faking it
IdkIdk
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@empathmind It just feels like it’ll be this way forever. You know?
IdkIdk
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@empathmind I’m just scared I actually have an attraction to girls, do you always get the feeling you like these thoughts?
anonempathanonempath
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@advice? yeah, my brain has a really hard time telling the difference between valid thoughts and non-valid thoughts
GummyDropGummyDrop
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@advice? Yeah idk if I like the thoughts but I don’t wanna be gay and idk who I am anymore, before I had a fun life now everyday I’m just kinda wasting my day
GummyDropGummyDrop
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@empathmind I do compare real or fake I’m mentally exhausted
anonempathanonempath
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@GummyDrop I totally understand. I’m really struggling with it as well. I would say the best thing to do is to stop questioning the thoughts. Let them happen and then let them pass. Stop trying to find evidence to prove that a thought is wrong or right. This only makes it worse. This is what I am trying to work on. And it’s FOR SURE easier said than done but I think eventually you will form a habit to not freak out whenever you have an intrusive thought.
IdkIdk
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@empathmind Do you think people with hocd still have intrusive thoughts but learned to just ignore them and not care?
anonempathanonempath
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yes. a few years ago, i developed HOCD and i think it lasted for SEVERAL months, if not a year. one day, i just wasn’t affected by it anymore. i would still hocd related thoughts that would pop up in the back of my head but they weren’t as intense and i was able to just let them go. about a month and a 1/2 ago, the HOCD came back. and im kinda stuck where i started. i think it was provoked by a change of meds.
IdkIdk
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Wow okay thanks for letting me know!
anonempathanonempath
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@advice? of course!
Ridethewave Ridethewave
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Was there ever a point where you felt like you were lying to yourself? Or in denial?
anonempathanonempath
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@NocturnalGyal when the HOCD went away?
hateocd123hateocd123
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Yes. I just feel gay now. I feel this really masculine energy coming from myself and it doesn't feel like me. It feels like it's starting to mix with tocd. I don't want to be trans. I've thought about it in the past because I used to hate being a girl, but I knew that I wasn't really. Now I'm scared I could actually be a man. It feel like I've opened some door in my brain that I wasn't aware of and let all of this shit out. I don't want to be a man. I don't want to think like a man either.
evkreyevkrey
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Sounds exactly like me but with guys!! Like a door opened or wearing goggles that show you a new world you didn’t know existed before
Ridethewave Ridethewave
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Was there ever a point where you thought you were lying to yourself?
IdkIdk
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Yup all the time. Im starting to feel wrong being with my boyfriend. Like I don’t belong with him.
Ridethewave Ridethewave
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@advice? I get that sometimes too. Luckily, my bf knows everything I'm going through so I don't get those thoughts as much because I know he's the only one I want regardless of what my damn HOCD or ROCD says
IdkIdk
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@NocturnalGyal Yeah I’m sure it makes you feel less guilty.
Ridethewave Ridethewave
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@advice? But it's okay girl. If you know that deep down, regardless of the shit going through your head, that you love your bf and want to be with him. Then that is what will happen. Plain and simple :) goodluck and don't beat yourself up for feeling the way you do. I find being hard on myself only made me feel worse about my relationship
AsnkuAsnku
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I feel you guys. I think like i just have to be lesbian even i dont want to be. Like i dont want to be
GummyDropGummyDrop
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Yess hocd and shits makes me hella gay
corey corey
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I believe we are all attracted to each other’s certain features but not in a sexual way . It’s just a curious thought
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Anonymous123
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Thoughts make sense
I've always found women pretty and admired them since I was younger, never wanted to be with them or anything. I always pictured having a boyfriend and my crushes were always boys. I have a boyfriend now but because this has happened I feel nothing towards him or any men. To be honest I'm so exhausted I don't feel much at all, there was so much anxiety at the start and now there is none. Does that mean I have accepted the thoughts. My mind keeps going you were suppressed all these years but I do find women pretty so that's what's making it worse. Am I just in denial and being delusional? I never doubted my sexuality before this I always considered myself to be straight but I feels like my mind has been twisted and can't remember any attraction to guys but can remember thinking girls are pretty? Does this mean it's all real? I don't know anymore
Anonymous123
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- 23w
I'm so convinced it's just denial
I feel sick to my stomach, a few days ago I knew I was straight and could picture my life with my bf again. The anxiety has really lessend and Im more depressed now. I'm 100% convinced I am lesbian even tho I have never had sexual attraction to women, found them pretty but never wanted to be with them. My mind is only picturing me being with women now and it feels like a pit in my stomach. I don't feel emotion now, I'm also on my period. I don't want to be lesbian. I want to be with my boyfriend and have the life I pictured with him. My memory is so dissorted right now. I don't think there's anything wrong with being lesbian, it's just not for me and now that makes me feel like I'm homophobic.
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Anonymous
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hey guys, i am really struggling
hey guys, i am really really struggling and i feel like crying. evry day i get this feeling of sexual attraction to the same gender, and i get those feelings even just thinking about it now. i hste them and want them to go away but they simply won’t and it has me thinking that this is just how my life is gonna be like. when i was fully healed or atleast thought i was healed from the false attraction and soocd, i still sometimes got that attraction feeling, and i would force my body not to feel it. i hated it and was scared of liking it so i would like stop breathing and make it stop. it was only ever occasional but this is making me concerned now too, because i still sometimes felt that feeling when i was healed. now currently my main trigger is masculine girls, but when my soocd first started i had no false attraction or attraction like this towards girls, and it was all just in my mind like saying, “don’t look at that girl or you’re gay.” there was one point in my soocd where i was worried about being attracted to my friends, but i am greatful in the sense of i know that that is not true and my main issue is the false attraction watching videos and i have experienced it once in real life too and i hated it. please lmk what i should do or even if you can relate. i am sick of feeling th is way, and i am a christian too so this makes it harder. i’ve tried everything like accepting it, or trying to even say to myself yes u do like it but it always just leads to me being scared.
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