- Date posted
- 37w
My Partner Needs Reassurance
Today my OCD is making me feel like a cripple. In the beginning of my relationship I wasn’t diagnosed and I struggled so hard with ROCD. When I realized I had OCD, I was slowly able to recover and it didn’t have power over my life anymore. A couple of days ago my partner unintentionally triggered my ROCD again. He asked me if I didn’t know him, would I still find him physically attractive? Now I genuinely don’t know the answer to this question… I tried so hard to imagine what I would think if I did not know him, and I really don’t know, and that is making him feel even more concerned. I can’t really remember my first impression of him, but I know I wasn’t infatuated. My ROCD is really triggered in the back of my head. It’s making me wonder if I am genuinely attracted to him or just used to him because that’s exactly his concern. And because of how important this is, I’m obsessed with giving an honest, accurate answer. I feel so stuck. Do people normally know the answer to this without much thought? I don’t know what to do… admitting my ROCD was making me struggle again made me so deeply sad. I feel alone in my struggles and that no one in my life can really understand how much OCD can hurt.