so something that’s really bothering me rn is that when i told my mom about my hocd, she didn’t understand at all and she just said “you can make anything an ocd thing if you wanted to” and that she’s not so sure about this subtype because it’s pretty new and it started being talked about when LGBTQ+ stuff started being acceptable in society. that freaked me out. and i told her it makes me think i’m bi and she said maybe you are. and that freaked me out more and so i said well then why have i liked and had crushes on boys since a young age and never looked at girls the same way as i do guys and i always just wanted to grow up and have a husband and kids. and she said maybe this was because i grew up in a household with a mom and a dad so it made me feel that’s what i should have. but ik i always wanted a husband and kids before bc that’s what i wanted. not bc i felt like i needed to. but since hocd, my attraction left and before i always wanted a boyfriend and when hocd came, all that left. bc you lose attraction from hocd. and now that i’m getting better it’s coming back but still not fully there. and my mom also said that she thinks when your sexual orientation is something that likes multiple genders, there’s always a gender you like more and that could be why i’ve always liked boys. that made me really nervous bc it made me think omg what if that’s the case. and to be honest it doesn’t make sense because before i always thought how the heck does a girl like another girl like that. no, i’ve never been homophobic AT ALL. i completely support. it just didn’t make sense for me. but since hocd, there’s been all this doubt. so that’s it, lol i just wanted to share what’s on my mind and what’s bothering me.