- Date posted
- 34w
A somewhat unusual problem with perfectionism.
Hello all. I am not certain as to whether my particular situation belongs within this group or not, but I would be very interested to hear from anyone at all familiar with it. I will try to be as concise as I can. My problems pertain to obsessing about the position of certain accessories, in my case particularly my watch. I will try to explain: no matter how I wear the watch, I am convinced that it is somehow āwrongā, if that makes any sense. I focus constantly on how it looks, the fit of the strap, and how the screen looks to me and how I believe others perceive it. Attempting to correct this āwrongā feeling consumes large amounts of time, and it has been doing so for many years now. It makes concentrating at work very difficult, as I often cannot stop obsessing over it. I have spent a considerable amount of money purchasing watches in the hope that I find one that I can tolerate, but the situation returns every time. The silliest part of it is that I donāt even really know what it is that I want the watch to do, I just know that whatever it is doing is wrong. Rationalising this logically does not seem to help, however. I also compare the look of the watch to other peopleās watches, and am somehow convinced that their watches look right and that I am somehow not doing the watch ājusticeā the way it appears on me and to me. I do not want to take the watch off, as I am then convinced that it has āwonā, a belief that I logically know is baseless, but for some reason it overpowers me. I wonder if there is anyone out there who might be able to understand this on any level? I hope that I have followed the rules here, I apologise if I have said anything inappropriate for this forum. Do feel free to contact me.