Scared of doing a compulsion

@nae nae Oh I didn’t know that it’s a compulsion. My compulsion that I’m afraid to do it’s with Groinal response.i don’t mind telling you , but I know that telling compulsions to other people can trigger them. That what made my ocd worse . So I don’t want to trigger you

@OrMsB That's very thoughtful! Don't worry, though. I've dealt with groinal response in the past, but not anymore. What helped me deal with them was realizing what triggered it to happen and sitting through the uncomfortable feelings/anxiety it brought. Essentially, exposure. I'd force myself to do this, no matter how much I wanted to avoid the triggers, and eventually, the groinal response went away for me. Exposure really does help. Questioning whether or not you have OCD is common with OCD. It's called the "doubt disorder" for a reason. It'll make you question anything and everything. The way we deal with that is, again, accepting the uncertainty. Acknowledge those thoughts, but don't tap into them. Don't ruminate. It's easier said than done, but with practice, those things will fade.

@nae nae Thank you so much, I really need to practice not to react to thoughts. The compulsion that I’m afraid to do it’s kinda move my private part purposely to an intrusive thought so I will get rid of the thought and that’s worse when I’m having a Groinal that really scared me and is sticking like a month. And because of that I have a lot of Groinals that it’s hard to get rid of. My therapist told me that I’m just afraid of doing compulsions. But what if it’s not a compulsion? Could my therapist lie to me? Do you think it’s a compulsion? Even if I do it to get rid of an intrusive thought but not to check? Now I don’t know if it’s a compulsion and I’m getting into loops. It’s frustrating. Thank you for answering

@OrMsB It definitely sounds like a compulsion. The doubt you're experiencing about whether or not it's a compulsion or if your therapist lied (which they wouldn't) is the OCD trying to trick you into focusing on the things that feed into it.

@nae nae Yea your probably right. My therapist told me it’s a compulsion and don’t put attention to it. But I keep obsessing over it like a month. It’s really hard and im trying to search a ways how to not care but I don’t succeed. Probably because I do a lot of mental compulsion around it. It’s just frustrating cause idk but it’s terrifying and thank you for answering.

@OrMsB These thoughts, feelings, urges, etc. can seem so real. It is frustrating, and it can be scary at times, I've been there. Mental compulsions are tricky, especially when you're so used to doing them without noticing. But that's why it takes practice. You can't reprogram the brain overnight. When you feel that urge to "check" or "solve" anything that's making you anxious, resist it. Sit with anxious feelings. Our brain sends us those thoughts, sensations, and urges because we've reacted strongly to them in the past. It thinks they're important, and that's why we have to respond with indifference. Honestly, Nathan Peterson has some really helpful videos on YouTube for how to deal with groinal responses and any other issue you're experiencing due to OCD. They're what helped me when I had an almost 3 month long obsession, but it passed. It was difficult, but it wasn't forever. I believe it'll be the same for you! You're already doing great recognizing the compulsions you do. Keep it up! :)

@nae nae Thank you so much, it’s really hard but I hope for the best cause I’m terrified right now

@Anonymous I relate so much. It’s so scary because the thought is all the time

@OrMsB to be honest with you trust me you will get through it. i remember having this compulsion and the thought of it was so intense however, i forgot it now i dont even know what it is anymore. keep going youre doing very well:)

@Anonymous Yea it’s very intense (for 5 weeks every day afraid I will do the compulsion, I feel like someone torture me) . May I ask how did the thought to do the compulsion pass without doing the compulsion?

@OrMsB because i was so scared of doing the compulsion i just obsessed over the fact that i was so scared and it passed

@Anonymous Thank you for answering I’m glad it passed for you. May I also ask how much time you had the thought cause my mind is telling me that if I have the thought for 5 weeks it will be forever

@OrMsB i have no idea how long i had the thought for i think it was short maybe 1 week. but it wont be forever, ive obsessed over a thought for about 4 months before and it passed. even though it was hard, it passed

@Anonymous Thank you I hope it will pass it’s really hard. I’m afraid I will do a compulsion that I don’t want to just to get rid of the thought

@OrMsB it will always pass i promise:)

@OrMsB i also struggle with groinal responses its the worst. i did a checking compulsion this morning that proved nothing to me im still confused. i think groinal responses are the hardest thing ive had to deal with to be honest

@Anonymous I hope so , thank you

@Anonymous Yea I think that it’s one of the hardest I have dealt with and I did a checking and I got more confused it’s horrible

@OrMsB yes oh my god